Confused

[Birdace]

Hi, so the past few years of my life have been absolute garbage.

Nowadays after much planning i moved and if i do this right i could stay here.

However the job im doing is heavy for me and not very compatible for my health plus im scared of my boss lol.

I dont feel it fulfills me as a person either or wathever but in paper its a good opportunity to pay the bills and stay here.

So i am deeply confused between finding something in which i can really develop any talent i might have and enjoy being alive but risking being semi poor and going away or closing my eyes and pushing through rather miserably but getting the opposite.

just how important in the end in reality is what one wants and pursues when it clashes with immediate necessity of everyday life

i would have to stick with wathever i decide for minimum a year btw

Well if there is any insight i appreciate lol