BodhranBace Posted July 31, 2020 Share Posted July 31, 2020 Hello Ponies, dragons, and all other mythical creatures. I will now tell you my proverbial life story, et sexual discovery. I guess I realized I was different around 11 or 12, I wasn't sure how, but I knew I was. My friends all started developing crushes and talking about sex in the 12 to 13 area, none of us had done it but it was all anyone could talk about. Then I thought I might be a lesbian until it occurred to me that if I were a lesbian I would have to be sexually attracted to women, because...that's what being a lesbian....means. Stupid-o🤦♀️. Well, then I supposed I was a late bloomer. But there was still a seed of worry in the back of my mind, that maybe I would never understand or feel sexual attraction (Oh no!), maybe I had a tumor on my pituitary, or maybe I had a hormone disorder, or maybe I was just defective. Anyway, I stuffed those notions and tried not to think about it until I was about 17 and 1/2 when I finally heard the term "Asexual" applied to humans. Now, shortly after I turned sixteen I started taking Zoloft for depression, anxiety, anger issues and obsessive tendencies. I had been suicidally depressed since 13. Part of it was genetic, and I think it was exacerbated by my feelings of inferiority du to asexuality. I know that SSRIs like Zoloft can cause low libido, but I don't even know what libido is supposed to feel like. It has just never made sense to me. I am now 19, and starting to be more confident and accepting of myself. I am out to my parents and one cousin. He has helped me a lot, since he is queer he understands coming out and just feeling like you are somewhere you need to come out of. When I came out to him, he said I sounded like I was ashamed. I didn't think I was, since I have always been very accepting of other gender/sexual orientations(I just didn't know asexuality was a choice), but it turns out; I was/am. I'm working on it. I have spent so many years thinking I was wrong and sick and broken that that has been ingrained into my sense of self. Lately I have been digging through all that and trying to address the issues I have been avoiding. My research lead me here, and so I am. Congratulations if you read the whole thing, I will give you a medal📀. Ok I can't find the medal emoji so I give you a CD instead. I like CDs more than medals anyway. Thanks for being here, stay Brony my friends.💜 Link to post Share on other sites
Lord Jade Cross Posted July 31, 2020 Share Posted July 31, 2020 Been a while since I've seen a brony /) As for your situation, you'll find many members who have been through the same or are possibly going through it still so there won't be a shortage of advice or people who can lend an ear or advice. Link to post Share on other sites
Sarah-Sylvia Posted July 31, 2020 Share Posted July 31, 2020 Welcome! 🍰 It sounds like you're on the right track for yourself, so congrats, and I hope you enjoy your time around. Looks like your a pony and fantasy fan ;D What CD am I getting? 😜 Link to post Share on other sites
BodhranBace Posted July 31, 2020 Author Share Posted July 31, 2020 Thank you so much! Yeah, my little brother taught me to love MLP, my Great Gran taught me to love Tolkien. I have rather eclectic taste in music, you pick the genre and we'll go from there. 🎶 Spoiler Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Lichley Posted July 31, 2020 Share Posted July 31, 2020 Welcome! Yeah everyone here loves to help out and give advice, so don’t be afraid to reach out to people if you need to talk Link to post Share on other sites
NickyTannock Posted August 12, 2020 Share Posted August 12, 2020 @Bodhranbitch@bAce A very belated welcome to AVEN! Congratulations on being out to your parents and cousin! I'm glad your cousin helped you! Incidentally, it is a tradition here to welcome new members by offering cake, and here's a "Sphinx" cake, https://cakesdecor.com/cakes/301301-sphinx-fantastic-creatures-challenge Link to post Share on other sites
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