being confused

[Dead account 4444]

hello again, sorry it's been a while since I've posted here, just here to give you a quick update and sorta vent about all this stuff to someone.

 

I've been fairly convinced I'm ace recently and I've even told a few online friends (they were cool with it.)

 

yesterday I saw this tweet telling people to report this account for posting child porn, so I went to the Twitter account and reported it. however I saw some of their tweets and all I could think was "penises look bad." 

but yeah that was sorta unrelated, just saying that I have no idea why people would want to have sex.

 

so that's all fine and dandy, I'm not sexually attracted to anyone right now and that's cool.

But I'm just a bit confused about romantic attraction right now. I'll have "crushes" on people but if I ever try to imagine being in a romantic relationship with them I'm just like "yeah I don't really want that either"

 

I'm just not really sure what these "crushes" are, maybe they're squishes?

but I don't really want to be friends with some them either, I guess I just want to look at them??

This could just be aesthetic attraction.

 

now I think about it, I've never really wanted a romantic relationship. perhaps I'm aromantic?

 

Idk, I won't try too hard to properly label myself until I'm sure about any of this stuff

 

thanks for reading my little rant thing.

[Dead account 4444]

oh yeah if anyone was wondering, that Twitter account has been taken down now which is good

[Skycaptain]

@a fancy fish, you might want to look at the Questions about Asexuality forum. Squishes, crushes, aromantic etc are better explained there.