ryn2 Posted January 21, 2020 Share Posted January 21, 2020 23 minutes ago, Traveler40 said: I came out of the flu fog Feel better!! 2 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Guest Posted January 21, 2020 Share Posted January 21, 2020 22 minutes ago, Traveler40 said: My lover has been a doll Omg I was skimming and saw this and was like thinking you meant something different, haha!! Sorry about that I'm sexual but.. some of those female sex dolls are really pretty. I kind of want one some days just to like brush her hair and dress her up and stuff. heh. Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Traveler40 Posted January 21, 2020 Share Posted January 21, 2020 Wanna edit that to sweetheart....😳😂 1 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
ryn2 Posted January 21, 2020 Share Posted January 21, 2020 LOL!! 2 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Philip027 Posted January 21, 2020 Share Posted January 21, 2020 I've never seen one of those that didn't look terrifyingly unnatural, tbh. But then, I'm probably not their target demographic. Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Guest Posted January 21, 2020 Share Posted January 21, 2020 17 minutes ago, Philip027 said: I've never seen one of those that didn't look terrifyingly unnatural, tbh. But then, I'm probably not their target demographic. 14 minutes ago, CBC said: I can't imagine ever banging a doll, although I'm probably I always had a harcore thing for dolls when I was little.. to the extent that when I was in my teens and confused about why I didn't enjoy sex, I started thinking I might have a thing for statues lol and I even told one of the girls at 'work' that I thought maybe I was attracted to statues, haha!! She thought it was pretty funny and told the other girls, sigh, but yeah.. I was always confused over my attraction to inanimate things that still look vaguely human Now I just figure it's tame to the rest of the stuff I have going on so yeah, no big deal. 14 minutes ago, CBC said: I'm not one for anything... not real. Which is why I can't do like, fantasy relationships. Or care about crushing on actors and stuff. I need real human connection. Online or offline, doesn't matter which, but it needs to be real. ah shit see I'm the opposite to an extreme degree. All my most powerful connections have been with.. well.. people who aren't real. I've never felt the same for a 'real human' as I have for humans that don't even exist outside of someone else's mind :c And weirdly like.. I'm suuuuuper attracted to some actors.. but never as themselves. Only ever as the characters they play 😧 I might be like, getting all weak in the thighs over an actor in a certain movie (as the character they're playing), but outside of that movie I feel nothing for the actor - even if they look exactly the same as they did in the movie!!! 😧 And with fictional characters from books (who I've never even physically seen) it's the same.. possibly even stronger. And this has been persistent for literally my whole life, since my earliest memories. It's sooooo confusing Y_Y Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Guest Posted January 21, 2020 Share Posted January 21, 2020 1 minute ago, CBC said: I remember that, yeah. We're definitely opposites in that sense. If it's not real I feel like I'm wasting my time and I don't get anything truly fulfilling out of it emotionally. (Not a criticism, of course!) Hah whereas for me if it *is* real I often start feeling like I'm wasting my time real quickly, and start turning towards fictional people as a way to distract myself from the 'real' person. I really can't even maintain basic friendships for this reason Y_Y Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Guest Posted January 21, 2020 Share Posted January 21, 2020 1 minute ago, CBC said: I try harder than I used to at least... I think. Blergh. 🙃 I took a huge step the other day and actually emailed someone from AVEN who is in NZ (he's visiting but is meant to be coming down my way later this year). I'm not sure if he'll reply again, but that's like the most social I've been in a veeeery long time, haha. I really don't know how to make friends or anything, but ..I don't know. That was just suuuuuper social by my standards Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Guest Posted January 21, 2020 Share Posted January 21, 2020 Crap now that I think about it, it's the most social I've been since like 2014 when I met a random transguy in Starbucks for a coffee then he helped me look at glasses frames in the Specksavers beside Starbucks, then I never talked to him again because he was really uncommunicative haha. And that was the most extreme thing I've done since like, 2009 LOL Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Guest Posted January 22, 2020 Share Posted January 22, 2020 The problem I have with friends and socialising is that I’m both a judgy c-nt and paranoid. So no matter how comfortable I am around someone else, I still (likely rightly) assume they think of me as I think of others. I’ve pissed off from the 2 long chats I’ve had through PoF. Can’t make it past a fortnight without just wishing for my peace & quiet back. Basically I just need Amazon to invent something that can let a mid-to-large size dog out for a piss whilst I’m at work and I can happily live alone forever more. Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Philip027 Posted January 22, 2020 Share Posted January 22, 2020 Quote I'm not one for anything... not real. Which is why I can't do like, fantasy relationships. Or care about crushing on actors and stuff. I need real human connection. Online or offline, doesn't matter which, but it needs to be real. Saaaaame 1 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Anthracite_Impreza Posted January 22, 2020 Share Posted January 22, 2020 1 hour ago, Pan Ficto. (on hiatus?) said: I was always confused over my attraction to inanimate things Come over to the dark side... even though I hate the word inanimate because they aren't like... devoid of soul. 1 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
anisotrophic Posted January 22, 2020 Share Posted January 22, 2020 I’m sexual but... I have never, ever had a crush on someone I didn’t know somewhat well. (i.e. talked to them a lot, like as friends) 1 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Xstatic Posted January 22, 2020 Share Posted January 22, 2020 6 hours ago, Pan Ficto. (on hiatus?) said: I'm sexual but.. some of those female sex dolls are really pretty. I kind of want one some days just to like brush her hair and dress her up and stuff. heh. Wanna hear something wild? My bff's dad was a developer/tester for real doll and she often remembers giant crates coming to their house and their basement apparently had an occasional suspended (in her words) "dead hooker" from the rafters. 😂😂😂 1 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Xstatic Posted January 22, 2020 Share Posted January 22, 2020 57 minutes ago, anisotrophic said: I’m sexual but... I have never, ever had a crush on someone I didn’t know somewhat well. (i.e. talked to them a lot, like as friends) Hard same. I've actually never understood celebrity or fantasy crushes! 1 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Guest Posted January 22, 2020 Share Posted January 22, 2020 9 minutes ago, CBC said: 2 hours ago, xstatic ☆ﾟ°˖* ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ said: Hard same. I've actually never understood celebrity or fantasy crushes! Almost same, with one very very notable exception that I suppose I've mentioned before. Trying to think of who knows the full story besides my ex and Skullz. Snao I guess, more or less? But yeah, there was one exception to that and it was a very big one, and I thought I was more or less in love with someone based solely on their writing and the parts of their life and character that I could piece together. And we did end up talking actually, after the feelings had developed and after a lot of emotional agonising on my part. We talked a lot. Every day. And it fucked me up and wreaked havoc on the relationship I was in at the time and it was the happiest I'd felt about another person in my entire life, until Skullery. And it wasn't even reciprocal and the feelings eventually faded, but for a while that was my odd, epic "love" story haha. Only time I've ever fallen for someone without prior interaction. I feel like I love someone less the better I know them.. and if I don't know them at all (and they don't exist at all) the feelings can be so strong they take my breath away. I feel like my wiring inside is all wrong or something Y_Y Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Xstatic Posted January 22, 2020 Share Posted January 22, 2020 2 minutes ago, Pan Ficto. (on hiatus?) said: 12 minutes ago, CBC said: I feel like I love someone less the better I know them.. and if I don't know them at all (and they don't exist at all) the feelings can be so strong they take my breath away. I feel like my wiring inside is all wrong or something Y_Y We're all wired differently. Just because it's different, doesn't mean it's wrong. Flavors of life are interesting. I wouldn't want it any other way. 😊. Just because I said I didn't understand, doesn't mean I am invalidating or thinking less of anyone who thinks differently. I just genuinely don't understand some things. 1 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Traveler40 Posted January 22, 2020 Share Posted January 22, 2020 Why do I hear Eliza Dolittle’s voice in the distance?!? Fray what? 🙃 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Traveler40 Posted January 22, 2020 Share Posted January 22, 2020 VH - what?!? I’m too old for that! Haha. Please, we were all betamax! 😳👍🏻 1 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Traveler40 Posted January 22, 2020 Share Posted January 22, 2020 Funniest thing is I keep asking my lover to make me a meaningful mixed tape - he’s like, “What decade are you IN?!?” 😂😬😂 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Traveler40 Posted January 22, 2020 Share Posted January 22, 2020 He did rip me a few discs I wanted: Fleetwood Mac Greatest Hits and the Steve Miller Band. Alas. I’m still waiting on the love list from heaven. Safe to say he’s not the lovey-dovey type. He’s more show than tell 😂. 1 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Traveler40 Posted January 22, 2020 Share Posted January 22, 2020 Ditto - and I’d better just be thrown into the wind. My husband says, “Whatever you want!” My lover asks, “Why not the ocean?” Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Traveler40 Posted January 22, 2020 Share Posted January 22, 2020 It’s not morbid at all, but imperative in my mind. Yes, my wishes are clearly outlined in my Trust. I have a specific mountain that we had a home on growing up. Straight to the top, toss me off and go on with your day folks. That’s about it. Funny things type A folks worry about: Are there laws against that?!? 🤔 Yeah, who cares at that point? 😬 1 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Traveler40 Posted January 22, 2020 Share Posted January 22, 2020 To YOU, yeah! 💪🏼😂 I can imagine a couple of scenarios: 1. My husband getting caught as he’s just trying to get ‘er done. 2. My lover walking and tossing so slowly no one has a clue. Wait, this is no joke - dare I share 🤔 1 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Traveler40 Posted January 22, 2020 Share Posted January 22, 2020 I kept adding on to that last post...it’s late and I’m sober. I have like 2 minutes before I must go to bed as it’s almost 3 hours past my bedtime. The flu has me all messed up. Ok, I have - literally - 1/2 a relative in my bookcase 😳😬😳 1 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Traveler40 Posted January 22, 2020 Share Posted January 22, 2020 😂 so there’s that! Long story short, family squabble and they split the person’s ashes down the middle. According to the attorneys, that happens quite frequently. 🤷🏻♀️ In any case, I get picked to hold half. So now what? I’m kinda stuck until further notice or more folks kick off and the younger set can make a less informed (less emotional) decision. Please, don’t ever let that be me..... To be clear THE HALF IN THE BOOKCASE! 1 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Traveler40 Posted January 22, 2020 Share Posted January 22, 2020 Deep thought: Where’s the other half? Yeah, I wonder that too, but no one’s talking. Fun times with family. 🥳 1 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Traveler40 Posted January 22, 2020 Share Posted January 22, 2020 No one is talking! 🤷🏻♀️ I KNOW it’s not funny, but I’m laughing so hard I’m crying. Someone on the other side of the divide has the other half... Truth is definitely stranger than fiction. 🤣 1 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Traveler40 Posted January 22, 2020 Share Posted January 22, 2020 In all seriousness though, since I do need my beauty rest, my goal is to eventually reunite the halves. So, I have 1/2 lying in wait between Shakespeare and Hemingway (the only spot that fit, no deeper meaning there, but funny nonetheless). May the younger generation not be as stubborn, bitter, resentful or vengeful as the older one so obviously is. 🙄 1 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Traveler40 Posted January 22, 2020 Share Posted January 22, 2020 Night Ceebs - thanks for chatting! Love this new thread that’s morphed on occasion. 😂😴 1 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
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