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After learning a lot about myself since becoming familiar with asexuality 6 years ago, and coming back to AVEN after several years away, I think it's been a lot easier for me to categorize my experiences. I do believe I experience sexual attraction as well as romantic attraction, however, if there was a bell curve for the average allo experience, I'd probably be rather on the outskirts of that curve...

 

I'm a sexual, but:

 

-though I can enjoy and desire sex in a relationship, when I'm not in a relationship, I couldn't really care less about sex and don't actively pursue it. Pretty ok doing things 'solo'

 

-I also don't actively pursue relationships really... I don't have any issue being single and there's a lot about romantic relationships that I don't like

 

-I experience attraction and get crushes, but it doesn't necessarily mean I want to act on them, even if the other person was available and reciprocal. I just kinda like the fluttery, warm feeling when I'm around them and desire their presence. I would choose a life partner more practically, dependent on how well we click and get along and are compatible in values. Are we best friends and devoted to each other? That's all that matters. If I'm attracted to their personality, I will probably develop enough other attraction to enjoy a sexual relationship with them as a partner

 

-I'm not very visual. I'm not sexually attracted to people I don't know, and don't get turned on by "hot bods" or whatever 

 

-I don't necessarily place romantic/sexual relationships as a priority over my other relationships like family and close friends

 

-it's a very teensy tiny part of my identity, same with gender. My life is more about meaningful work, learning new things, and making friends and memories

 

-I have a stronger social need for a close group of friends with shared goals and interests compared to a partner. I'd be ok without ever having a single life partner if I felt I had a strong group bond (think from Lord of the Rings or Harry Potter or whatever). However, if I had a partner but not the group, I'd always feel like something is missing in my life.

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On 9/24/2019 at 5:04 PM, Kimchi Peanut said:

I’m sexual but I don’t masturbate

I had a friend ask me if I do this. I have roommates and thin walls and honestly don't see how they'd even get away with it. They insisted I must and I told them how stupid a question this was. I not sure why people assume this stuff. 

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I'm sexual but I think celibacy is healthier for me with where I am right now. Dealing with sexual relationships for me involves working around way too much queer and gender baggage to be worth the energy.

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On 9/24/2019 at 8:34 PM, cbc said:

 And I don't recall ever finding a stranger attractive and immediately jumping to imagining sex with them, either. I just... I get butterflies in my stomach, act like a nervous dork, and that's kind of it.

I have never even felt "butterfly's in my stomach." To me that concept is strange, where just seeing someone can cause that feeling.

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1 hour ago, cbc said:

Yeah that's very very rare for me with a stranger, tbh. And it wouldn't really be a result of just seeing them for sure, like with no interaction whatsoever. It could happen with a tiny bit of communication, though... employee at a store, someone next to me on public transit, whatever. Still incredibly rare in reality though.

I feel it after knowing someone for like a year if I like them... 

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I'm sexual but I almost never have sex in my dreams.

 

When sex features in a dream at all it's just like a random weird event, and my dream self is confused.

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I’m sexual and I’ve had maybe three? dreams ever that were sexual in nature. (That I remember.) So jumping in on that point. I have had dreams where I was in a relationship with a fictional person or someone in real life that I would never ever see that way. And the sex in the few dreams where it occurred... wasn’t sexy. It was more weird and tension-y than enjoyable. And I don’t think I was ever “me” in those dreams - I was some other person. 
 

Yeah, my dreams are very unsexy like being naked in public with my teeth falling out and I can’t speak. Or being on a space ship trying to run a hospital for puppets. Not sexy at all.

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I'm sexual, I am sexual, I am too overly sexual......my desire is off the charts, I am hooked on naked female bodies, I am hooked on pleasure, really hooked on pleasure......I mentioned being hooked on pleasure right?.....my Psychiatrist classed me as a nymphomaniac, I said, but, I thought that was just for females, he said, guys can be nymphomaniacs too.....I mean lots of guys are sex nuts, but even after I have (had) sex, (sigh no more sex), I was never satisfied, wanted more.....it's all I ever think about, everything I see reminds me of something sexual.....I have often wished I could be like many of the people on here, that have no desire for sex or anything to do with it.....I wish I could be like my wife and not have any desire whatsoever, but still be madly in love......I don't understand how she is the way she is, I try to, but, the desire builds up and, I get so moody and mean that I am just not someone you want to be around and I can't help it, until I find release.....yes I am certifiably crazy.....if I could cry, I would cry a river....but, the medication I take, I think dried up the tears, for I used to cry alot.....I need to be close to my partner, my mate, my love, my wife......and she doesn't want or need me in that way....but, even if she did, it wouldn't be enough. I would still want more......yep I am sexual, I am too sexual. I am way too sexual. I'm almost 60 years old and still cannot stop wanting sex, that I cannot have.....btw, porn is a disease, an addiction, pleasure and desire are addictions.....too much of a good thing is so very bad.....oh, I cannot stand myself......lol

 

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16 hours ago, CBC said:

I'm sexual but I've never purchased "sexy" undergarments and don't see it happening ever. There was a recent convo in a sexuality-related Facebook group I belong to about lingerie and lots of women commented that they love buying it and I was like... yeahhhh no. Neither I nor my partner wear lingerie and it would weird me the fuck out. 😂 If someone wasn't cool with my white cotton undies and occasional sports bras (though I generally don't bother with one at all), tough shit.

I liked buying it but now I am kind of  ... in between about it. It ends up feeling like trying to compete with models and that's setting myself up for failure. But my wife likes it so I wanna wear it sometimes. I am so conflicted now. 😛

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For someone who is asexual and only wears plain undergarments, I get a lot of Wish ads for very provocative lingerie. And some of it isn't even for the right set of genitals.

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1 minute ago, CBC said:

😂 I remember the one you sent me, yeah.

 

Er, the ad. Screenshot of an ad. To be perfectly clear to anyone reading this, Snao did not send me a penile masturbation aid. 😬

We still have a week before Ukrainian Christmas...

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54 minutes ago, CBC said:

Oooh, you're right! And I'm 50% Ukrainian, so. 😎

 

Or rather, 😬😬😬

 

Also re: BDSM stuff, it's interesting how different people are. Some people perceive that whole... black leather and metal aesthetic, with chains and pokey-looking things and whatever 😂... as sexy. It makes me feel threatened and uneasy. I couldn't handle a BDSM situation or even be with a partner who I knew liked/wanted that stuff, it would legit make me cry. I don't want boring sex lol, but I also don't want things that feel... dark? I dunno what other word to use to describe it.


(And obvs no offence intended to people who are into that stuff. They don't perceive it the same was as I do, of course.)

Heh. I think the point is it is meant to be threatening... but in the right hands it's all safe anyway and that's the pull. Knowing it could be quite scary but the good dom turns it into something safe and caring instead. 

 

Of course... vanilla people arent into it all the same. Which is fine. But, yeah. Most my lingerie is latex / PVC and domesque. Though it's hard to get to sexy and threatening but safe when I am a clumsy person. :D

 

 

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7 hours ago, CBC said:

I also don't want things that feel... dark?

Interesting observation, as - now that I think about it - that’s part what I like about it.

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7 hours ago, CBC said:

Also this is a random question that just popped into mind, but... @Serran, isn't latex/PVC terribly uncomfortable?

Not really. It is stretchy kinda like spandex. As long as it is cool in the room it's fine , cause it doesnt let much air in so can get pretty warm if worn a while (though... its lingerie... so doesnt last too long)

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Random sidebar: 99.99% of the time I’m on my phone using AVEN. Today I grabbed my iPad. Wow! What a difference. I see all of this extra stuff I’ve never seen before.  

 

Edit: On topic, I’d die in latex. This from a woman who loves to wear a wetsuit....

 

Holy Shit Ceebs! 55k+ posts? Newbie here...and Serran, love the second quote of your signature.

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3 hours ago, Traveler40 said:

Random sidebar: 99.99% of the time I’m on my phone using AVEN. Today I grabbed my iPad. Wow! What a difference. I see all of this extra stuff I’ve never seen before.  

 

Edit: On topic, I’d die in latex. This from a woman who loves to wear a wetsuit....

 

Holy Shit Ceebs! 55k+ posts? Newbie here...and Serran, love the second quote of your signature.

Thanks. SPFA kinda inspired my quotes... 😛

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Be very annoyed, I think I just added one. While not earth shattering, it is my motto. I’ll have to mentally mark to check it sometime in the future.  In the meantime, here’s to hoping it’s not erroneously flipping the bird....😳😬🤣

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22 minutes ago, Traveler40 said:

Be very annoyed, I think I just added one. While not earth shattering, it is my motto. I’ll have to mentally mark to check it sometime in the future.  In the meantime, here’s to hoping it’s not erroneously flipping the bird....😳😬🤣

Looks fine to me. :) 

 

Says:

“This ain’t no dress rehearsal.” - Cordes

👉🏼Make it great.👈🏼

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It looks like pointing, not flipping off,

to me.  XD  At least from the images above; I’m on mobile.

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9 hours ago, Serran said:

Not really. It is stretchy kinda like spandex. As long as it is cool in the room it's fine , cause it doesnt let much air in so can get pretty warm if worn a while (though... its lingerie... so doesnt last too long)

The joys of hooverbeds 

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23 minutes ago, CBC said:

I was interpreting that statement differently. More... subtly.

Yeah, I figured that from what you said, but since there were actual one-fingered hands in play...  :)

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14 minutes ago, CBC said:

What's a hooverbed?

It's a vacuum and a bed. Like sleeping on a giant roomba. Duh.

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2 hours ago, CBC said:

What's a hooverbed?

He means vacuum bed. Its latex beds that vacuum pack a person by being attached to... well, a vacuum. The person breathes out of a small tube at their mouth and is immobilized. I told chat about it one day and... Half has been running the joke since 😛 (over 3 years now...)

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4 hours ago, Serran said:

He means vacuum bed. Its latex beds that vacuum pack a person by being attached to... well, a vacuum. The person breathes out of a small tube at their mouth and is immobilized. I told chat about it one day and... Half has been running the joke since 😛 (over 3 years now...)

More like 5 or 6 years 

but it’s no longer the weirdest hobby I’ve come across 😜

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