mistaking strong (negative) feelings for love

[catra]

has anyone else ever felt so strongly about someone that (even though the feelings were pretty negative) they thought they were in love? when one of my exes came into my life, i didn’t like her that much. she faked problems and mental health issues for attention and she was always trying to come in between me and my best friend. but, i was slowly realizing i was gay at the time, and since i’d never felt love before i thought maybe these strong feelings were just jealousy because i wanted her. we dated, we broke up, and i didn’t realize until after everything that i never even loved her. in fact, the only reason i realized was because i saw a quote that said something along the lines of “i resented you so much i mistaked it for love.” 

 

tl;dr: anyone else mistake resentment/dislike for possibly love?

[argar]

I know I have a bad habit of associating abusive behaviors with love like feelings sometimes.

 

I have generally been used to more negative reinforcement, as opposed to positive reinforcement, so it is more familiar to me.

 

It's not exactly the same, but your comments reminded me of that.

 

Have a beautiful night.