disaster-ace Posted March 11, 2019 Share Posted March 11, 2019 I had a crush I was maybe 12 on my best friend I wanted to hold her hand and see her smile but didn't people usually want more And when i got a bit older i couldn't help but notice what all the boys looked at what all the boys wanted the one thing i didn't and when i got a girlfriend, i was terrified of what she might want or if she knew me too well what she might find we split up i was sad but relived because i couldn't give her a certain part of me no she never asked so i never told i didn't know what i was i thought maybe i'd just lost hold on the emotions like love and wants like lust i thought maybe i was broken and at the time i had no one to trust so google was my best friend when i wanted to know who i was because this bothered me to no end i saw why i never wanted what the others did i didn't want sex and why was always scared when i fell in love of what people want from me why i never liked boys the way my mama said i should and never felt the urge to "smash" like my heath teacher said i would I'm different not broken I'm have feelings I'm not a robot and I can fall in love even if it takes a bit longer and is a bit harder Link to post Share on other sites
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