Been with my Asexual partner for 18 years since high school.

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On 1/3/2019 at 5:30 AM, anisotropic said:

I didn't think I could either! It was unintended (and an unreciprocating/unacceptable situation) but...

 

I wonder if there's something about my primary relationship being a long one. This emotional rollercoaster stuff feels like it refers to a new relationship, in its early years. (It was also what frustrated my partner, having my mood so affected by someone else.) ... I hadn't had this thought before! That maybe this manifested only now because the main relationship isn't in that early phase anymore.

Maybe. 

 

For me, it doesnt matter the length of the relationship. I keep intense romantic feels, still wanna cuddle and talk a lot and all. And any romantic connection to someone else comes only at the cost of the romantic connection to my partner. I can truly only have one at a time. No one else registers that way. Even people I later end up dating after my relationship ends are nothing romantically until im done with the first connection.