What the hell am I?

[corma.c]

Hello, 

 

I’m a 15 year old boy and from Ireland. I’ve always thought sex was a bit “weird” but assumed it was just immaturity until recently. I identify as bisexual and have kissed people of both genders and was a in a relationship with a girl until fairly recently. We never went past the stage of kissing and giving each other hickeys (which I very much enjoyed) but frankly I just wasn’t interested in anything more. Recently, upon finding out that my friend had gotten a handjob from his girlfriend, was taken aback and found myself blushing. 

While I masturbate frequently and have a totally normal sexual attraction to people and all that, I find sex strange between mostly people I know, though I do feel like I would like to have sex. I would be very anxious that my first time would be very strained however and don’t masturbate to people I know.

Any help would be so greatly appreciated! 

[TheAP]

When you say you experience attraction to people, what kind of attraction do you mean? If you're curious about sex but don't have any inherent desire to do it with specific people, you might be asexual. You don't have to figure it out yet, though; give yourself time.

[corma.c]

Sorry, I meant to say sexual attraction 

[IcyZorua]

It's possible that you're a biromantic asexual, but you should probably do some research of your own before coming to a conclusion.

[Aroace_bookworm]

There's also lithsexual as a possibility

[Ceebs]

You sound like a completely normal 15-year-old boy who's discovering his sexuality and may not be ready for certain things yet. Which is 100% okay; 15 is quite young and sexuality can be a complicated and daunting thing. And anxiety is so normal that it's pretty much universal. I'm 33 and still figuring my shit out, haha.

[Baam]

I agree with CBC, you said you experience sexual attraction to other people, but you just find sex strange between people you know. It is weird and awkward, and your anxiety about the topic is completely normal.