Torc87 Posted April 15, 2018 Share Posted April 15, 2018 Hopefully this is an ok place to post this. TRIGGER WARNING: Explicit talk of sex and arousal and BDSM. So I'm trying to figure out my labels. I like labels - I've used bisexual for about a decade now, have about a dozen BDSM ones, but can't for the friggin LIFE of me figure out the way demi/gray A/ wherever the hell I'm on that scale interacts with any of them I am bisexual in that I can see myself in a relationship with either a man or a woman. I find both at least aesthetically attractive. That probably means I am romantically attracted to either. Slightly more to men. Aesthetically I tend to find women prettier, especially feminine looking ones. Is it sexual attraction as well as aesthetic? No clue. What's the difference? I mostly think of looking/admiring. I don't tend to want to drag Anyone to bed no matter how much I like the look. I don't want to touch any private parts and vice versa. Admittedly, looking could easily become leering if I had no manners. But is that sexual? I can't seem to narrow down what is sexual attraction vs sexual drive vs sexual desire vs aesthetic attraction vs romantic attraction vs flaming platonic attraction vs my kink vs.... I know enough to know I have a sex drive, masturbation is enjoyable. I know BDSM is fun, can be arousing though isn't always. I know I can be sexually aroused by it. In the moment that may mean I want to be touched, and rarer still, to touch, genital parts w my play partner. I also know that the few times I've done that I a. Didn't enjoy it and b. Felt repulsed a bit during and definitely after. I know I don't find sex in theory repulsive. In theory I fantasize about it, I like the idea ( usually w my fetish involved but sex is in theory attractive) However in practice I find genitals either boring as hell - my few attempts at sex left me going .... Yeah, bored, can I turn the TV on? Or worse - yucky, and too many bodily fluids and kissing is no fun, I don't like the taste and smell and yuck. So in practice it becomes repulsion or boredom. Where does all that fit? Except I have on maybe two occasions wanted to try having sex w someone. To initiate it. Didn't, so I'm not sure if I'd still be bored if it was inspired by some sort of attraction ( emotional). If I'm demisexual and it is the lack of connection that interfered. So that's sexual desire? Or is it? There's so many factors and attractions and aspects to consider! I like flirting, I like sexual attention and interest from others... I just don't want to do anything about it. Does that even fit into that puzzle? If I'm into BDSM, and I find BDSM sexual sometimes, does that mean I am sexual just w a fetish? How the hells can I find the action sexy, just not the person? Or the person, just not want to do anything w them? Or sex in theory being intriguing and in reality being repulsed? It feels like a lot if contradictions. I'm not quite sure if I have a concrete question. Just...anyone wrap their minds around all this stuff better than I can? Link to post Share on other sites
Lichley Posted April 15, 2018 Share Posted April 15, 2018 Asexuality is the lack of sexual attraction. Aesthetic attraction doesn’t equal sexual attraction (see below). Asexuals can have kinks/ fetishes, as that I suggest part of sexual desire / libido, not sexual attraction. Link to post Share on other sites
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