Poems about self-doubt

[Flump222]

I've been trying to write poems as a sort of way to cope with self doubt recently. I have gone through phases of accepting myself, and then doubting myself again. I sort of feel like I have this shadow of doubt that will always hover over me. I've gone through stuff like this before, but this time it's different. I sort of feel numb to it, like I just don't have an idea of where I am anymore. I try to analyze everything that I feel, and I really just don't know anymore. I'm torn between wanting to think about it to resolve it, and just wanting to push it away and forget that (a)sexuality is even a thing. This is my latest poem here (which should also be in the poems thread here), and sorry if it isn't that good.

 

I stand at the crossroads
People brushing past
Eager to find their place.
Their home.
 
But I remain still
Dread clawing at my being
Violently tearing at the fibers
Of my heart.
 
I stare at the ground
My gaze transfixed on the
Well-trodden path.
Where I belong
Unclear to me.
 
I succumb and
Collapse to the
Ground.
Tears stream down my face
In a melancholy deluge.
 
The paths beckon me.
They pull me in and
They pull me apart.
 
I can't walk
Those paths.
I don't belong  
 

Anywhere.

[wonderingwanderer]

Just wanted to say I read this and it struck a chord with me, as I am going through the same thing right now. Very relatable. Thank you for sharing.