Trans Moments?

[Janus the Fox]

The decision to go in jeans or skirt... is a tough choice, though I'm more than go with a skirt, for comfort... a lot of comfort.

 

[nerdperson777]

On 2/17/2018 at 11:53 PM, Mezzo Forte said:

Oh, that's barely scratching the surface of the Hurtful Boyfriend route, which is already in spoiler territory. I assure you that I watched my sis play the game quite thoroughly several years ago, and there's a reason why people get genuinely emotionally invested in a pigeon dating simulator of all things.  Honestly, I've been making friends try playing the game as I watch, and it's been quite fun.

 

Your friend must have been talking about Shuu if she likes plump birds. I actually have a plush of him compliments of my sister. My friend likes him too  

I wasn't referring to any specific bird.  She likes those properties of any bird, real or not.

[nerdperson777]

When you're not out and you hear cis girls mention period experiences.  I said "what affects what?"  The reply I got was "Girl things, you don't have to experience them."  That is true.  I don't have to experience them anymore.  But I know how bad it is, first-hand.

[binary suns]

 

 

Looking in the mirror and seeing transgoals and crying because you realize this makes all your life a lie.

 

 

being confused because happiness like you’ve never had before is quickly turning to depression out of sheer shock of it, and you don’t want it to slip away, but don’t understand how you could make it this far with such idiot belief that happiness isn’t something you lack, thinking that other people don’t get happier than you do, and realizing...  you don’t know what happiness is...

 

 

  now that I understand why I am crying. It doesn’t make me feel any better. It makes me feel worse. 

 

 

This is confusing and stupid and help

[Mezzo Forte]

My facial hair is finally long/thick enough to justify using conditioner on it, so I finally have a use for my old stockpiles of the stuff from when my head hair was absurdly long. 

[Celyn: The Lutening]

1) Guy at a train station asks me where the toilets are (because apparently I have an "approachable face"). Now this particular train station has binary male and female toilets so I say "Sure," then gesture broadly at the general Toilet Zone - "Right here". Then I go into the female bathroom because I gotta sit down to pee. In the weird little antechamber/corridor thing I realise the guy is still following me -  he must have thought I was a cis male and followed me without reading the sign on the door. I panic and my little aspie brain doesn't know what to do so I just turn around to him and say "No..." in a sad, soft voice. I'm saved by further embarrassment by a sweet little old lady exiting. The Guy says "Oops!" and hurries out. 

 

2) Our watering can is pink. Dad wants to ask me to water the plants and for some reason, says "Can you put the pink thing on the plants?" (Our family phrases things strangely all the time, but we always know what we mean). I open my mouth to say "Why do you want me to put my penis on the plants?" as a joke (yes I have a shameful sense of humour). And remember just in time that I don't have one. 

[nerdperson777]

6 hours ago, Mezzo Forte said:

My facial hair is finally long/thick enough to justify using conditioner on it, so I finally have a use for my old stockpiles of the stuff from when my head hair was absurdly long. 

I remember the time my phone advertised beard oil to me. Any hair I grow on my face is never going to be visible.

 

[Celyn: The Lutening]

55 minutes ago, nerdperson777 said:

I remember the time my phone advertised beard oil to me. Any hair I grow on my face is never going to be visible.

 

I liked a page on StumbleUpon once about male dressing - like, cool ways to tie a tie. And it started giving me beard styling pages. Even if I one day theoretically grow a beard, it's never going to be more than groomed stubble. Anything more looks like a mountain man and is just asking to store samples of everything you eat. Yuck.

[Mezzo Forte]

2 hours ago, Celyn said:

I liked a page on StumbleUpon once about male dressing - like, cool ways to tie a tie. And it started giving me beard styling pages. Even if I one day theoretically grow a beard, it's never going to be more than groomed stubble. Anything more looks like a mountain man and is just asking to store samples of everything you eat. Yuck.

Haven't had that issue yet, and I've been growing out my ratty facial hair since the beginning of March.  That said, I have mostly neckbeard and my mustache is still quite invisible, so my facial hair doesn't really disrupt my eating habits or catch crumbs. So far, my facial hair seems to be growing ~0.5 inches a month, and it is admittedly kind of unruly. That said, I'm blond and the stubble doesn't come in dense enough to be visible from a distance yet, so growing it out is the only way my facial hair becomes visible, and I would rather a visible ratty beard than the clean-shaven look at the moment. I care for my beard hair much like I would the hair on my head, brushing it, washing it, and I put nice conditioner in it so my beard is soft to the touch.  Pretty sure any facial hair I grow will have the same level of care that I once gave the hair on my head, so it'll definitely stay clean!

 

I use a beard brush to reign in my facial hair a bit, so this is how it normally looks:

Spoiler

 

That said, I can also make it look a little more wild if I want to  

Spoiler

 

[nerdperson777]

4 hours ago, Mezzo Forte said:

That said, I'm blond and the stubble doesn't come in dense enough to be visible from a distance yet

I'm reminded of two trans women friends I met from online.  I was visiting near the area.  When I met up with them, I did try to look at their features.  I noticed the one with dark hair (on head and face) had way more visible hair than the other, who was blonde.  The dark haired girl had visible shadow, even though she shaved her mustache.  The blonde one had facial hair, but no one could really tell unless they're up close, in my case, a few feet away from walking together.  So I guess that is a possible perk for trans women.

The blonde one got E later and I've heard that she's very happy with her transition.  She's pan ace and she's even got a boyfriend now.

[PixleyDust✨]

Can you have trans moments if you’re bigender? Cause if so, there’s something I experience that confuses the ever-loving shit out of me.

 

I feel startlingly female when wearing male clothes, my binder AND my packer, but surprisingly male when I’m wearing my super girly clothes, makeup, and jewelry.

 

Which normally wouldn’t be a bad thing, except I was trying to express my male side with the former and my female side with the latter.

 

...

 

WHAT IS THIS IRONY

 

WHAT IS GENDER. 

 

WHAT IS LIFE. 🤣

[Wanheda]

I’m questioning my gender identity, I think I might be transgender but I’m not 100% sure, what were some of the signs y’all had that made you know you were trans.

[nerdperson777]

On 5/18/2018 at 5:53 PM, Pixley said:

Can you have trans moments if you’re bigender? 

Bigender is two genders, and the moments you state are where you don't feel aligned gender-wise so I'd say that counts.  Heck, I'm bigender, but my second gender only surfaces itself like 2% of the time?  It's like 3 days a year.

 

23 hours ago, Wanheda said:

I’m questioning my gender identity, I think I might be transgender but I’m not 100% sure, what were some of the signs y’all had that made you know you were trans.

You can set up your own thread for it, but whenever you feel that you don't like certain things associated with your assigned sex.  Like someone assigned male may not like facial hair, or prefers dresses.  Someone assigned female prefers short hair and no boobs.  But these are just some common ones.  They aren't clear indications.

[nerdperson777]

Trans ace moment

 

My voice sounds gay.

 

 

This is awesome.

 

 

 

[Mezzo Forte]

17 hours ago, nerdperson777 said:

Trans ace moment

 

My voice sounds gay.

 

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This is awesome.

 

 

 

I had one student tell me that she thought I was flaming gay because of my voice. Go figure since I’m straight-passing in a lot of spaces. Guess the ambiguity sounds about right when you’re neither straight or gay  

[Starbogen]

So this last week I was at my little brother's middle school graduation and some of his teachers, who were also my teachers, came up to my family afterwards to congratulate him and apparently asked him where I was.. and I was right there like four feet away and had even tried saying hi to one of the teachers, but then I realized she had kinda ignored me because she didn't recognize me at all.

 

I get that these teachers haven't really seen me much at all since I was like 13 but my face is honestly not that different, and it's crazy to think that clothes and a haircut can affect my passibility so much that people literally don't recognize me. A bit later I could see them walking away and talking and they totally kept glancing back at me and it felt kinda weird but also awesome.

[nerdperson777]

On 5/27/2018 at 8:54 PM, Starbogen said:

So this last week I was at my little brother's middle school graduation and some of his teachers, who were also my teachers, came up to my family afterwards to congratulate him and apparently asked him where I was.. and I was right there like four feet away and had even tried saying hi to one of the teachers, but then I realized she had kinda ignored me because she didn't recognize me at all.

 

I get that these teachers haven't really seen me much at all since I was like 13 but my face is honestly not that different, and it's crazy to think that clothes and a haircut can affect my passibility so much that people literally don't recognize me. A bit later I could see them walking away and talking and they totally kept glancing back at me and it felt kinda weird but also awesome.

Once my cousin joined us for lunch. Our old neighbors on our left side (they sold their house and moved) happened to go to the same eating place as us. They recognized my cousin but as who was the question. Before I cut my hair, I was often seen as a younger version of my cousin. So did they recognize my cousin as her, or me? It can be a hit or miss for who recognizes me since it would depend if people remembered me by my hair or my face. I'm guessing the neighbors didn't recognize me. My cousin afterwards said "sure I can be their [my parents'] kid".

[SkyWorld]

I’ve yet to tell my grandma I’ve started HRT back in January. I was nervous about telling her because when I came out she mentioned that she doesn’t think I should go on hormones or surgery, at least until after college. Little did she know I was already a few months on hormones. :’D

 

I had called her today and she noticed that my voice changed. She said something like “why does your voice aound like that? It sounds harsher, it used to be soft. Are you making it sound like that, or..?” I got nervous and said “Uhh I might be coming down wirh something.” Lol

[nerdperson777]

9 hours ago, SkyWorld said:

I’ve yet to tell my grandma I’ve started HRT back in January. I was nervous about telling her because when I came out she mentioned that she doesn’t think I should go on hormones or surgery, at least until after college. Little did she know I was already a few months on hormones. :’D

 

I had called her today and she noticed that my voice changed. She said something like “why does your voice aound like that? It sounds harsher, it used to be soft. Are you making it sound like that, or..?” I got nervous and said “Uhh I might be coming down wirh something.” Lol

I still have been having a cough whenever I had to interact with relatives so idk how I'd be able to fool them any longer with a year long cough.

[Starbogen]

I just went to check if I was indeed on the list of people who are gonna graduate and the person helping me looked it up with my student number and she was like "Yeah here you ar...(she started saying my birthname and then looked at me)...wait no...."

And I had to tell her that yeah that was me and that was just my legal name.

 

Sometimes people don't react to the dissonance between my birthname and my appearance but I always love it when they do, it's really reassuring. I even confirmed it was my legal name by saying it even though I could have just said my last names. I think it was a matter of not giving it too much power by never being able to utter it out loud at all (like with Voldy in HP).

[nerdperson777]

I just realized.... that online friend who just came out to me, (I guess I'll use she pronouns) she played a reptilian girl in that one RPG we played a few years back. I was playing a male animal of some sort. Perhaps those were signs that our genders were not cis. 

[PixleyDust✨]

Kind of a funny trans(ish) moment.

 

My city was having its Pride Parade/Festival today, and since I was going to be marching, I decided to go as my male persona. Wore my male clothes, binder, and my packer. Then I thickened my brows a bit with brow powder and did a little bit of sparkly powder all over my face because I wanted to be fabulous. Got some hairspray to keep my hair in place and had to wash off the bit that got on my arm. Dried it off with a towel and left for the parade.

 

Fast forward to after, when I’m shedding out of my male persona. I’ve put everything away except my packer, because I wanted to clean and repowder it before doing so. 

 

So, that’s exactly what I do. And I don’t realize until after I’ve dried it, that I had dried it with the same towel I had wiped my hairspray/glitter coated arms on earlier.

 

And now my packer is super sparkly, sibs.✨

 

And most of all, I am TOTALLY okay with this. In fact, I love it even more now. 🤣

[nerdperson777]

21 minutes ago, Pixley said:

And now my packer is super sparkly, sibs.✨

 

And most of all, I am TOTALLY okay with this. In fact, I love it even more now. 🤣

This just reminds me of a game I played with a late friend.  It was like a simple online tabletop game where you just roll the die and try to get to the end.  On specific spots on the board, one can pick up certain items that could be usable or you can sell it.  There's this item that adds sparkling effect to items to be sold.  You can apply it to pretty much anything.  There is a move in the game where you steal an item from another player.  So I waited for her to steal my sparkly item.  It's also totally random what gets stolen from my inventory.  This game has a bit of dirty content in it so the item I added sparkle to, it was a condom (there are STDs in this game, and characters can die from it, which then the player would roll to try to revive from the dead every turn until they do).  So she stole my sparkling condom.

[Celyn: The Lutening]

Helped my stepmum - can't remember what we were doing. But she goes "Good boy...Good girl...Boy? Girl?" and looks at me. I just shrug and say "Whichever."

Funnily enough, my dad, who doesn't want me to transition, is more likely to say "Good man," or "Good lad," and not correct himself.

[vmdraco]

I realized I never told this story before, which happened in May when I was on vacation:

 

My family took us to Disney World this year (they're members), and since I'm an artist they thought it would be fun for my sis and I to go to a little painting class thing that they offered at one of the resorts.  It was fine, I wouldn't do it again because I didn't really like the watery paint or materials (or lack thereof) they gave us to work with.

 

However, I realized quickly that on the way to the room where we worked, I did not see a family restroom I can go to.  I wasn't familiar enough with the resort to find one on my own.  I got done early because Art Student, and I ask if there's one on the current floor, and one of the girls said no but would escort me to one a few floors below me.

 

What I wasn't expecting, though, were the single stalled restrooms that she led me too: they were separate, single stalls marked for boys and a single stall for girls.  Here I was thinking there was gonna be one unisex bathroom, but no, there were specific labels marked separately and I immediately wondered how I was going to do this.

 

She was standing right next to me too as though expecting me to enter, and I kinda just... stood there... not sure what to do about it lmfao  Like, would I come out to a stranger and give myself away?  Or go to the single for girls so that she wouldn't know?  This is Florida so I just wasn't sure of my situation, even though it is Disney World and nothing would have happened anyway.  But it was kind of scary and embarrassing.  

 

Ultimately, I chose the single stalled men's because... well... that's what I align with.  She was waiting for me when I got out and like an idiot I blabbed out apologies because I was concerned about making her feel awkward, because of my apprehension to use the damn bathroom.

 

But the good news about it all was that she didn't seem phased, and told me there wasn't a need to apologize for anything.  She was probably trained by The Mouse to not say anything anyway, but she seemed super chill with it and chatted with me on the elevator about how I like the class.  It calmed my nerves and I'm glad it turned into a positive.

 

So yeah... I came out to a random Disney cast member because I had to pee.  I have never seen a single stall bathroom that was marked male or female before.  Disney World is great for family restrooms, but the ones at this resort just wanted to be different I GUESS.

 

EDIT - Going pee in Didney Worl marks my 500th post!  WEEEEEEE

[nerdperson777]

2 hours ago, Celyn said:

Helped my stepmum - can't remember what we were doing. But she goes "Good boy...Good girl...Boy? Girl?" and looks at me. I just shrug and say "Whichever."

Funnily enough, my dad, who doesn't want me to transition, is more likely to say "Good man," or "Good lad," and not correct himself.

Once my dad once said before I went back to school "be a good girl...boy, girl."  I'm like thanks...you misgendered me twice in the same sentence.  My parents tend to confuse pronouns since they sound the same in Chinese.  So they correctly call me he like 5% of the time.

[PixleyDust✨]

On 6/10/2018 at 10:17 PM, nerdperson777 said:

This just reminds me of a game I played with a late friend.  It was like a simple online tabletop game where you just roll the die and try to get to the end.  On specific spots on the board, one can pick up certain items that could be usable or you can sell it.  There's this item that adds sparkling effect to items to be sold.  You can apply it to pretty much anything.  There is a move in the game where you steal an item from another player.  So I waited for her to steal my sparkly item.  It's also totally random what gets stolen from my inventory.  This game has a bit of dirty content in it so the item I added sparkle to, it was a condom (there are STDs in this game, and characters can die from it, which then the player would roll to try to revive from the dead every turn until they do).  So she stole my sparkling condom.

This post just MADE MY NIGHT. 🤣

[nerdperson777]

10 hours ago, Pixley said:

This post just MADE MY NIGHT. 🤣

There were gender and sexual orientation options in this game.  There might have been a non-binary gender option but I'm not completely sure.  But for sure, the options for sexual orientations were boy, girl, or "I like them all!"  I think I switched around between boy and non-binary gender each game.  And you can see how the sexual orientation is an ace problem.  My friend was a bi trans girl so she chose the obvious options there.  She once stepped on a spot that let her choose something like a career.  Whenever I landed on it, I would choose to be a paladin or knight.  She decided to be a succubus several times.  She had seduction powers so she managed to seduce my character, which IRL would be very ironic.  I just sat there thinking, how could I ever be seduced?  But at some point, she killed me with an STD.  It was okay for her succubus to get an STD because it gets more powerful with more STDs so she had 3 ongoing ones.  It was a weird game, but amusing.

[nerdperson777]

I saw a post being shared earlier.  It was pic of a tumblr post that said "If you're queer, you get 2x XP this month."  One funny comment I saw was "time to grind, oh wait."  My comment was asking if I get 4x XP for being trans and not straight.

[Guest]

Instead of feeling awkward for buying girls body maintenance products, I find myself now feeling awkward getting myself men's shaving razors... (For the few leftover hairs I got..)

Funny thing how this works,