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westoftroy

So I'm only sexually attracted to someone during the "honeymoon" phase

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westoftroy

Hellooo, I apologize in advance if this is a bit long. 

I am a 24 year old female who has dated men and women happily. The fault in these relationships always lies with me, however. 

 

Prior to the relationship I will have sexual fantasies about someone who I believe I could have intimate emotional connections with, and I will be advantageous about a sexual relationship in the beginning of a new relationship. But once I reach emotional comfort and safety I literally feel no need for sex. I am still attracted to my partner in that I find him or her beautiful physically. But my sudden disinterest in sex (in every relationship I have ever been in) often drives people away because I don't know how to warn them about this initially. Especially because it doesn't occur for several weeks into the relationship. And I also think that I'm hoping one day I will find a person with whom this disinterest doesn't occur. 

 

In the beginning I do crave and enjoy sex and I will initiate intimacy with no hesitancy. But somewhere along the way I just stop caring about sex and prefer partnership. But I cannot make myself value the partnership enough to subject myself to more sexual encounters. 

 

Has anyone else ever felt something like this?

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Syrthia

You sound similar to fraysexual.

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Ash19

I apologise for such a long response, and for my inevitable spelling mistakes....

 

I have had this issue for ever. (Save my first few relationships that were not sexual, and my longest relationship which was 15 second car sex ten times a day... that sucked.) With my partners I am sexuality interested at first, then we become a thing, and then my sexual drive goes our the window. Lately I have been more open about it, and my partner now is fully aware that I have no desires to be sexual. They are hypersexual and horny all the time, (they say this themself.) They are OK with me being on the asexual spectrum, but as of late this has been putting much undue stress on both of us. Stress for them because they need that sexual intimacy from me, for myself the feeling of not being a good partner because I cannot preform. I cannot force myself to just do it and get it over with because I do not want it. I would rather be cuddly, or watching a movie/ playing video games. Sex feels like an anxiety inducing chore that I dread almost every day, along with the occasional gross factor. When I finally can do the deed I am relived that I get at most about a week of relief from "I'm feeling horny, just letting you know." 

 

Now my partner is awesome, they are extremely sympathetic, and empathetic towards my lack of sexual drive. They are getting better at not being aggressive with their sexual requirements. This does nothing for the anxiety I feel over knowing that they will be horny again, very soon, and they need that from me. I am trying not to fall into the hole of depression this inevitably leads to but I am having trouble. 

 

I am open to polyamory for this reason, I know for a fact that I cannot do this so if it is that bad please go find it. But they need that intimacy from me to feel loved in that way? (I may be an assumeing ass hole here) I know sex is important to most relationships, I have done my reaserch. And I still struggle with it. I have less than zero answers and I apologise for that. But your not alone with this.

 

 

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Nesci

I have been able to tolerate being sexual with some exes during the first few weeks. I think it may be the novelty of it being someone new, along with the hope that this time it might actually be different (this time I might actually feel aroused by them and feel pleasure in sex). It's always followed with disappointment and the guy feeling rejected and resentment towards me.

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Rhaenys

I kinda understand. The honeymoon period is the most exciting time. I'm asexual and that's the only time I could bring myself have sex. You sound similar to a fraysexual.

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The fault in these relationships always lies with me, however

I know what you mean by this and I also want to say that you are not at fault. It's who you are. I'm not minimizing how awful it feels to be in your position, but it isn't your fault anymore than it is your partner's fault for feeling the way they do. Nobody is at fault. They are just being who they are. I say this with much kindness.

 

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They are hypersexual and horny all the time, (they say this themself.) They are OK with me being on the asexual spectrum, but as of late this has been putting much undue stress on both of us. Stress for them because they need that sexual intimacy from me, for myself the feeling of not being a good partner because I cannot preform. I cannot force myself to just do it and get it over with because I do not want it. I would rather be cuddly, or watching a movie/ playing video games. Sex feels like an anxiety inducing chore that I dread almost every day, along with the occasional gross factor. When I finally can do the deed I am relived that I get at most about a week of relief from "I'm feeling horny, just letting you know." 

 

Now my partner is awesome, they are extremely sympathetic, and empathetic towards my lack of sexual drive. They are getting better at not being aggressive with their sexual requirements. This does nothing for the anxiety I feel over knowing that they will be horny again, very soon, and they need that from me. I am trying not to fall into the hole of depression this inevitably leads to but I am having trouble. 

 

I am open to polyamory for this reason, I know for a fact that I cannot do this so if it is that bad please go find it. But they need that intimacy from me to feel loved in that way? (I may be an assumeing ass hole here) I know sex is important to most relationships, I have done my reaserch. And I still struggle with it.

 

 

I am exactly the same way as you two are and have been this way for 30 years. I like the excitement and novelty of a new partner but then it all fizzles out. I don't feel sexually attracted to the new partner, but definitely not sex repulsed. The desire to have sex is more from an excitement factor though, rather than an arousal or need. It's also an expectation ingrained in my head by society so I have a hard time discerning whether I am really having sex because I want to or because that's what I'm supposed to do. 

 

When I first started having relationships, there was no AVEN. Basically, something was wrong with you if you didn't want to have sex with the person you loved. I also thought I was super picky and that felt selfish. Why couldn't I be into someone (even romantically) long term like most others were? My partners always fell head over heels in love with me (not because I'm great, but rather because they experienced the packaged romantic/sexual attraction to its full potential) and I just felt content or good enough with them.

 

I tried over an over to make a relationship work. I worked on myself. I kept thinking that next time would be different if I just did this or looked for someone with these qualities. It always ended up the same for me. I just couldn't get revved up like they could. I was ok with that, but my partners never were. They didn't feel loved or desired. 

 

In my experience, it has never worked for me to be in a long-term relationship with a very sexual person. Apparently, some people can make this work. I feel I need to warn people to not do what I did though. I compromised myself and suffered for it. If you feel very anxious or depressed a lot of the time because of your relationship, my advice is to do something different. I don't know what that would be for you as everyone is different, but I do know that staying in a relationship where you can't be the real you has some sad effects on a person. 

 

 

 

 

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Light18

It is a relief to hear other people describe the honeymoon period. For me, it feels like it is all tied up in the romantic part and when romance is new and exciting, I am sex favorable. But once the newness wears off, I am sex indifferent again. I never can that much about the sex but can truly love and care for the person romantically.

 

My partner and I have been together almost 11 years now. It lasted longer, but eventually faded. I thought something was wrong with me and we fought about it often. I only recently discovered the ace community and found others who experience things similarly.

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FinneganCatch

I'm glad to see I'm not the only one who experiences something like this. It's not that I'm sexually attracted so much that I am more willing do what I can to please the other person. Mostly I feel like during the honeymoon period sex is a way to experience that closeness you get from emotional closeness later in the relationship. Once I have that emotional closeness I crave I find it hard to go back to including sex into the equation when its something I don't really want to do. I'm not sex repulsed later in the relationship but indifferent might be the best way to describe it. I find it hard to factor it into my time when there are so many better things I could be doing with it. Even in the beginning of a relationship its a lot of curiosity about what its like to be close to this new and exciting person in my life and sex just seems to automatically become a part of that since its "normal". I've spent a lot of my life doing the "normal" thing and wondering why I'm so unhappy with it.

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westoftroy
On 11/16/2017 at 12:38 AM, Ash19 said:

am open to polyamory for this reason, I know for a fact that I cannot do this so if it is that bad please go find

I feel the same way. I am open to polyamory for myself and my partners so that we can both enjoy sex. Because I only find sex appealing when it is involved with discovering new people. And I don't want my long term partner to go without because I cannot perform for her. But how do you even begin to bring that up to someone, you know?

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westoftroy
On 12/6/2017 at 8:53 PM, FinneganCatch said:

Mostly I feel like during the honeymoon period sex is a way to experience that closeness you get from emotional closeness later in the relationship. Once I have that emotional closeness I crave I find it hard to go back to including sex into the equation when its something I don't really want to do. I'm not sex repulsed later in the relationship but indifferent might be the best way to describe it.

Right. I'm not repulsed, it's just that I feel like sex is a relationship milestone. Once you get there and achieve it, you just move onto looking forward to the next milestone. I'm not sure if that makes a lot of sense. 

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