I'm not going to have to go through another 7 years of this am I?!?!

[bellsprouts69]

Hey everyone!

So, rough recap of my life from 7th grade through freshman year at uni. Started questioning gender in 7th grade or so and now I'm happily trans non-binary ("they" please). Obviously it wasn't that smooth ;) and large portions of those important years of my life really sucked. However, I've got all that figured out now, it just took 7 years.

So, post-gender questioning stuff I started looking into my sexuality. Though I'm unsure of my specific subgroup I'm definitely ace. As I've looked more and more into the subject I've started to have a really bad time. Like, I thought, because I've had similar confusion and experiences with my gender identity, that I would have a better time with this. But no, the nauseating feeling of a black hole in my gut slowly eating away at my soul has returned, and, let me tell you, I wasn't missing it! Exactly like my struggles with gender early on, I find myself hating the fact that I'm ace. I hate that I'm not experiencing sexuality like my friends are. And the thing is, I know at some point I will come to accept it and probs be really proud of my sexuality. It's just, right now I'm so lost.

So, basically, can someone help me out here? Point me in good directions, give me hella advice, etc. I just don't want the next 7 years of my life to be like those 7.

[Null_and_Void]

The way I like to explain it is with anchovies. I like anchovies. Many people do not like anchovies. Are those people missing out on some great flavor that I experience just because they don't like anchovies? No, because again, they don't like anchovies. To them, it's simply not good. Likewise, to an asexual person, it's not that they're really missing out on anything because they don't experience sexual attraction, because to them, it doesn't even matter. It's just like absolutely any preference you could have for anything. It just like not liking a food, not liking a movie, not liking a painting, etc. It's just one experience, which you have no interesting, by definition, so why should it bother you any more than not liking anchovies should bother some people?