Really weird and personal question, also TMI

[Mike_Rophone]

So, when I was just starting pueberty, I remember going online and finding pictures of celebrities I liked, and saving them in a folder, so it was what you'd call a 'FapbFolder' Now, for the question. Is this weird? Has anyone else ever done something like this? I know it is only my business what I do when I'm in the mood, but I'm just curious if this is weird. I don't have one right now, but I think about how I used to sometimes. Any responses are appreciated!

[Snao Cone]

This is 100% normal.

[MoraDollie]

A lot of people have "secret" files on their laptops that they go to when they're feeling horny/sexy/whatever and use that said folder.

[Jeena]

Oh god yes. I did the exact same thing on my phone.

[tase]

Not now since everything is so readily available. But during the married years, oh yea. I had to buy external hard drives to keep it all. I think the file name was superbars or something similar to that.

Not Weird At All.

Although I should add I wish I still had those drives. There was some really good clips on them. Tons of "special interest" clips.

[Jeena]

Although I should add I wish I still had those drives. There was some really good clips on them. Tons of "special interest" clips.

You and me both.

[Guest]

Same only I never went to much of an effort to keep them ''secret'' ..and mine were a bit more kinky than just celebrities or whatever haha.. anyway yeah it's very common ^_^

[butterflydreams]

This was how I learned about encryption.

[tase]

Same only I never went to much of an effort to keep them ''secret'' ..and mine were a bit more kinky than just celebrities or whatever haha.. anyway yeah it's very common ^_^

I'm sure mine were not as kinky as yours, but not bad if I say so myself.

Same only I never went to much of an effort to keep them ''secret'' ..and mine were a bit more kinky than just celebrities or whatever haha.. anyway yeah it's very common ^_^

I'm sure mine were not as kinky as yours, but not bad if I say so myself. 😛

[PurpleAce]

I have a folder full of dessert pictures.

(No, I'm not ashamed of it.)

[Hobbes∞]

I have a folder with over a hundred and fifty anime smug faces. In many ways this makes me question a lot of the decisions I've made that have led me to this point.

[Morning Glory]

I personally was never interested in celebrities. Of course I do have some that I take a particular interest in, but i'm not much more then a simple and rather below average fan (but I do feel slightly giddy when I hear patrick stewart or morgan freeman's voice). I honestly find it very difficult to understand the appeal of celebrities. Sure I'd probably lose my mind if I meant Fluffy, but I don't go learning everything there is to know about him (I'm sure that sounds worse then what fans actually do) and I can't see myself asking for his autograph; I'd probably go up to him, hug him and probably cry. I'd love to get to talk to him too but I'm still not going to pay hundreds to go to his show. Personally... I can't stand the way the media works. Why put so much emphasis on celebrities?! I can't enjoy reading about how a person is still a person (example... Magazine: "look! They walk their dogs and buy groceries just like us!" Me: "... ... ..." *closes magazine* "you'd think they were human or something..."). I'd prefer reading stories from first responders, animal rescuers, soldiers, and that sort of stuff ya know?

Ack! Sidgshevwidvagdk! I'm so sorry. I was ranting and rambling, uhm... I have a lot of saved links to yaoi mangas. :3

[Philip027]

Hearing about how common this sort of thing is really helps it sink in how not normal I am.

[Morning Glory]

Hearing about how common this sort of thing is really helps it sink in how not normal I am.

What is this "normal" you speak of? ;3

[sophy38]

Hearing about how common this sort of thing is really helps it sink in how not normal I am.

Not normal?! you are not the majority (99%!), just it and nothing more. ;)

[Philip027]

What is this "normal" you speak of? ;3

Yeah I know, I'm talking REALLY not normal. It's moreso my personal hangup about how I felt when I first came across this place.

When I first came around here I still felt very alienated despite knowing I had to be asexual, because many people here gave off the vibe of still being very "sexual" asexuals when that was actually because they were libidoists... which is presumably the reason for stuff like this being "normal", even among aces.

[El-not-so-ace]

Nope, I don't do that, but I've got a gpod imagination so I don't need photos. :) Plus, I'm too prudish to randomly look at those pics... Though I do check my boyfriend's sometimes. xD

[tase]

I guess I should add that there were no photos of anything. Never could get off to photos alone. It did not stop from looking at smut mags on occasion. Also I've never been aroused by a celebrity pic. Not even the world famous Farrah Fawcett poster all the rage in my generation.

Philip-I've been reading this a lot lately

I see as many repulsed/neutral males on here as favorable.

The repulsed/neutral comments stand out to me as a favorable and sometime feel I don't belong, so maybe it the exact opposite for you.

I think there is plenty of room and support and a sense of belonging for both of us :)

[Philip027]

I guess I should add that there were no photos of anything. Never could get off to photos alone. It did not stop from looking at smut mags on occasion. Also I've never been aroused by a celebrity pic. Not even the world famous Farrah Fawcett poster all the rage in my generation.

Philip-I've been reading this a lot lately

I see as many repulsed/neutral males on here as favorable.

The repulsed/neutral comments stand out to me as a favorable and sometime feel I don't belong, so maybe it the exact opposite for you.

I think there is plenty of room and support and a sense of belonging for both of us :)

That picture is terrifying, to be honest. There's a fine line between a sweet, genuine smile and a "I'm definitely going to murder you in your sleep" smile, and she crossed that line. I seriously can't look at that face without getting that "brrrr" chilly sensation down my back...

And yeah, the feelings of alienation have lessened over time, but still isn't totally gone, as evidenced by discussions like these.

[Philip027]

It bugs me that you can see Farrah Fawcett's nipples in that pic. Like I want to get some tape and flatten them or something, because they're ruining the aesthetics of the bathing suit.

I don't even care about what's down there. The face is just so unsettling...

Sometimes, people will just poke through a little bit, even if they are trying not to. It's not exactly their fault, at least not all the time :<

[Morning Glory]

What is this "normal" you speak of? ;3

Yeah I know, I'm talking REALLY not normal. It's moreso my personal hangup about how I felt when I first came across this place.

When I first came around here I still felt very alienated despite knowing I had to be asexual, because many people here gave off the vibe of still being very "sexual" asexuals when that was actually because they were libidoists... which is presumably the reason for stuff like this being "normal", even among aces.

Oh, I see. I feel a bit bad now. I'm sorry you've been feeling that way. I can sort of see where you're coming from though. Besides being asexual I'm sure most of us can relate to feeling "not normal". Hey! If you ever wanna talk about anything random you should shoot me a PM! :3

[butterflydreams]

And yeah, the feelings of alienation have lessened over time, but still isn't totally gone, as evidenced by discussions like these.

I know exactly what you mean, Philip. There are definitely areas and discussions on AVEN that tend to weird me out, or make me feel like more of an outcast than I'd like. But I promise you're not weird. I know no one would believe me, but I honestly originally started looking up naked people, and eventually porn, because I was just so curious. My sex ed in school was awful, and everyone else seemed to know about it. What was I missing? How did they know and I didn't? Most of my searches started on wikipedia *honest to god*. I truly believe the arousal factor (because that's the entire purpose of porn) was an unintended consequence. It's certainly one I wasn't expecting when I started looking into things. The shame factor (hence the hiding and encryption) was because 1) I knew my parents wouldn't want me looking at this stuff, and 2) I was ashamed I didn't already know about all of it myself. I didn't have a girlfriend. I didn't know anything, but everyone else did somehow.

Now that my curiosity there is largely satiated, I don't really care anymore. Though on AVEN, I still, like you, tend to feel incredibly alienated in the "I'm having sex" or "I did this sexual thing" discussions. But I'm working hard to understand that that's ok, and it doesn't make me less of a person, or weird, or abnormal. Just different :)

[Philip027]

Oh, I see. I feel a bit bad now. I'm sorry you've been feeling that way. I can sort of see where you're coming from though. Besides being asexual I'm sure most of us can relate to feeling "not normal". Hey! If you ever wanna talk about anything random you should shoot me a PM! :3

No, it's okay, it's not like you knew that about me, and it's not like I had to click on this thread >_>

Though on AVEN, I still, like you, tend to feel incredibly alienated in the "I'm having sex" or "I did this sexual thing" discussions. But I'm working hard to understand that that's ok, and it doesn't make me less of a person, or weird, or abnormal. Just different

Yeah, it still just sucked to be all like "wow, a community of people that are just like me in this regard!" only to have the rug pulled from underneath you and realize that you still felt alien even among the aliens (compared to the rest of the 99%, anyway).

Even during the times I could look at it in a healthier way and just call it "different", different still sucks when you were hoping to have finally come across people that were like you, for once in your life. Don't get me too wrong -- people like that do exist here, it's just they aren't as plentiful as I was thinking they would be when I first came across this place.

[Morning Glory]

Oh, I see. I feel a bit bad now. I'm sorry you've been feeling that way. I can sort of see where you're coming from though. Besides being asexual I'm sure most of us can relate to feeling "not normal". Hey! If you ever wanna talk about anything random you should shoot me a PM! :3

No, it's okay, it's not like you knew that about me, and it's not like I had to click on this thread >_>

Though on AVEN, I still, like you, tend to feel incredibly alienated in the "I'm having sex" or "I did this sexual thing" discussions. But I'm working hard to understand that that's ok, and it doesn't make me less of a person, or weird, or abnormal. Just different

Yeah, it still just sucked to be all like "wow, a community of people that are just like me in this regard!" only to have the rug pulled from underneath you and realize that you still felt alien even among the aliens (compared to the rest of the 99%, anyway).

Even during the times I could look at it in a healthier way and just call it "different", different still sucks when you were hoping to have finally come across people that were like you, for once in your life. Don't get me too wrong -- people like that do exist here, it's just they aren't as plentiful as I was thinking they would be when I first came across this place.

D8 *runs over and hugs* that's heartbreaking! I'm sorry! Ya know... This situation is probably worse then it needs to be, since I think the reason why there are so many of these topics is because people want answers and they want to understand this more, especially since we're all living in a hypersexual world. I'm certain that if more people made topics on others things, that you wouldn't feel so alone. I can say with confidence that there are many of us who would much rather partake in discussions other then anything sexual.

[edit] P.S. Normally I wouldn't want to click on most topics that are anything sexual. The reason why I do, is because I want to help other AVENites in their struggle to learn and understand.

[Philip027]

D8 *runs over and hugs* that's heartbreaking! I'm sorry! Ya know... This situation is probably worse then it needs to be, since I think the reason why there are so many of these topics is because people want answers and they want to understand this more, especially since we're all living in a hypersexual world. I'm certain that if more people made topics on others things, that you wouldn't feel so alone. I can say with confidence that there are many of us who would much rather partake in discussions other then anything sexual.

[edit] P.S. Normally I wouldn't want to click on most topics that are anything sexual. The reason why I do, is because I want to help other AVENites in their struggle to learn and understand.

Yeah, I understand. I don't have anything against threads like these, for the record. I'm all about more learning and understanding, too.

There was a time where I would have avoided "TMI" topics and such. I'm at least not as squeamish as I used to be, even if the TMI topics at hand still tend to be stuff that's beyond my ability to grasp.

[Roboto]

I have approximately 721 photos of Andy Warhol in a folder, stored in the cloud so I can't lose them.

You can learn a lot about masturbation-behaviour on the NoFap-Reddit, if anyone is curious. That thing is full of people posting about how they just deleted several Terabytes of porn.

[The Not So Impossible Girl]

I used to have a folder of hundreds of pictures of Simon Pegg and Nick Frost because their friendship is so beautiful to me...

But I have since deleted it because of computer space and also googling is so easy.

It honestly never would have crossed my mind to store stuff for masturbatory purposes xD But there are a lot of things that never cross my mind that are actually quite common for people to do, such as googling for help on homework All this time I thought I just had to wait to ask the teacher if I didn't know something...