Dartanyan Posted January 6, 2016 Share Posted January 6, 2016 Hellooo people. My name is Dartanyan (Dar-Tan-Yen) if thats to hard to pronounce just call me Janks. Im 19 years old. Currently working on going to college to be a controversial biologist (cool huh😌). Video games, ramen, anime, fashion, music, space, animals, and being a cannabis are my interest lol. On a boring Wednesday fliping through channels, on the Pivot channel I watched the documentary on Asexuallity and found it to be an extremely intresting topic! I also felt that in a way I have similar views that recently started to surface...or maybe just now taking the time to acknowledge from being inspired by so. Heres my story👇 (I'll try not to get tooo personal but) As a kid growing up ive been sensitive to my surroundings due to my experiences with humans and living in a "challenging" environment. I've always honored friendship and strengthining bonds but...realizing the beauty and cruelness of Earths inhabitants...i deemed such things useless and in my best regards, Isolation is the ultimate protection. But lets go back in time a lil⏳ Back in my highschool days Jr year, I met a girl that made me develop strong emotions. And because it was my first time experiencing a strong desire to be with someone..I hardly logically thought about the situation. We met through mutual friends and the fact that she was with another guy was BEEN presented. (Think of this as a plant will ya?) We went to seperate schools and only saw eachother on weekends and holidays and such. There was no disputing that we both felt the sameway. As time progressess, our bond grew more and more but at the sametime started to question it. Regardless of how much we wanted to have sex...we didnt. I guess...strongly liking someone has no chance of triumph over someone you love. We would always go back and forth but we just couldnt stop what was blooming. She later figured out (through his friends) that her bf was cheating on her for a loong time and it seem like they were done with eachother. So im all like☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺ But.Because she loved him. She did everything she could to save their relationship. She told me she didnt want to continue this but wanted to still be friends..I explained to her how i felt but she said it was never that serious.. Left in distraught. (Im not religious but hell is real!) It was a hard pill to swallow. After that i rarely saw her and when i did, I avoided her. All i could do was contemplate. I became crucially anti-social. I had no longer desired sex or establishing and keeping any kind of bond. Not even with family. Amongst the people i knew, discussion wasnt a option. After I graduated I moved to another state and it was still the same. Even when approach by females, i treated them as if they were filth. Im not gay. Its just my convictions are strong. Which brings me to this cool website. I wanted to share and hear what it is you guys think? Im open minded so i will acknowledge everyones insight. Thankyou 😁 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
mardakaisson Posted January 22, 2016 Share Posted January 22, 2016 To rephrase what I said earlier without being insulting: From what I gathered in this post, the only reason you started treating women like filth(which is something you should never do), is because you had a crush on a girl and she rejected you because she loved her boyfriend(who admittedly was unfaithful). I have two main problems with this: 1) Why would you blame her? It isn't her fault she didn't feel the same way towards you. What you did seems to me as to be punishing her for not liking you 2) There is no reason to treat all women like filth. None at all. They are all human beings deserve to be treated as such. I understand that you were distraught, I have felt that as well, but it's times like those when we should surround ourselves with friends and people who care about us, instead of shutting ourselves out from the outside world. Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Dartanyan Posted February 3, 2016 Author Share Posted February 3, 2016 Thank you. Well I really didn't blame her. It was a chaotic time and I was younger. I can't further explain how I contemplated on the situation but again wdym by "what I did" Im actually a pretty nice guy lol. Those are just my thoughts to make me look at someone a certain way (visually) not actually treated them. Again, excuse me for not explaining myself throughly. Its cool that we can relate on some level but its difficult for me. Quote Link to post Share on other sites
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