is this a crush or a squish?

[variousNumbers]

Yo, I've made lots of posts on here about my confusion with my romantic orientation, excuse me for asking similar things more than once (lots of people said I was lithromantic, which sounds accurate, if a little disappointing. Hear me out though.) I dated a boy near the beginning of last school year. He's really nice, and he has cute shaggy hair, and his laugh makes me happy. He always tells me about video games I don't know a whole lot about (namely tf2) and apologizes the whole time, but I like listening to him talk about weird specifics in the game because he gets so excited and he cares so much about it! It was fun to date him at first, though it took a while for us to start even holding hands because we were both so nervous. After a while though, he got really cuddly (I am not the cuddliest person, for sure.) and it made me uncomfortable. I ended up dreading hanging out with this person I liked so much, because I didn't like when he was so physically affectionate. I told him I wasn't very comfortable with it (WAY later than I should have!) and when he asked if I loved him, I genuinely didn't know, so we broke up. Now everything's stopped being awkward and we're really good friends, but he's starting to date one of my other friends and seeing him cuddle with her the same way makes me super angry and jealous! I keep on justifying my stupid jealousy by saying that we're like robin and ted from how I met your mother, but let's be honest, (SPOILERS!!!) robin's kind of an a**hole in that situation, and she shoulda just stuck with barney. (not REALLY, but their breakup seemed like crappy writing to me!) whoops, I got super off-topic. Anyway, id love it if someone could tell me if I'm having a crush, or if I'm just being dumb and not dealing well with a squish! Thanks so much!

[AVEN #1 fan]

Nice comparison lol crushes are persons whose u feel romantically attracted to, in other words are persons u'd like to sleep with, cuddle in bed, marry, have children with, kiss romantically, watch romantic comedies with XD, go on dates, etc. Now about squishes, they're platonic crushes, in other words u feel friendly attraction to those persons, u like to do everything u like with them, sometimes u do romantic things with them, but nothing that can mean u r a couple with this person, u also don't feel like marrying this person, or raising kids with them or mouth kissing, sleeping together, etc. But in both cases u get jealous. Now that u know what's romantic and platonic, there comes the alterous attraction, it's most likely the feel of being "the wife of ur bff" lol, anyway it's like having a soul-mate in a friendly way and u feel both platonic and romantic feelings towards this person, however they're not complete, u'll never feel like being that person's friend or lover, u r alterous.

[AVEN #1 fan]

Jealously is something from human nature.

[PurpleAce]

It sounds more like a squish to me...

[Star Bit]

Maybe you just don't have sensual attraction/are Asensual, rather than Lithromantic. People respond differently to things they don't reciprocate.

But as you say, maybe it's a squish and the uncomfortableness is coming from receiving someones romantic attraction.

Romantic attraction is an emotion; so it doesn't translate well into words, but it can be inadequately put as soft/warm/fuzzy feelings with some degree of fixation (at least in comparison to one's normality with others). Some people have a physical reaction to the feeling and others don’t (i.e. butterflies in their stomach, heart rate increase [though those are also symptoms of platonic nervousness], dreamy mindset, anxious euphoria, infatuation, etc.).

A squish aka platonic attraction is just a strong urge to know/befriend someone. Sensual attraction is the urge to have non-sexual physical contact like holding hands and kissing, etc.