avuhree Posted September 26, 2015 Share Posted September 26, 2015 So I am a seventeen year old female who is genderfluid. That being said, I am so confused on what I am sexually and romantically. So basically I have been in relationships but I have ended the majority of them because I get too nervous and eventually realize that being alone is what I like. I can't really see myself with anyone, boy or girl. I am open to both though! My motto is "It doesn't matter what's in your pants, it's whats in your heart." Now as for sex, I am in the same boat. Here's a lil story: This guy invited me over to "hang out", we had known each other for a while and we had been talking about being sexual with one another... when I got over there it was a different story. We started getting more intimate and I just wasn't getting turned out what-so-ever. I thought I genuinely liked him but then I don't think that is what liking someone actually feels like, now that I think about it. I think I was just looking for someone to give me attention because I got lonely. I eventually left because it wasn't happening and cried in my car and was absolutely disgusted with myself and the idea of being touched/sex. I also tried to talk to him about it and he stopped talking to me because I didn't want sex , so thank god I didn't sleep with him. Okay so, basically whenever I think about having sex with someone or being in a relationship I just can't picture it but I do watch porn and masterbate (when I do masterbate (penetration only) I end up crying by the end and feeling gross about myself but my teenage hormones have to be taken care of..). I am just really confused on why I am feeling this way and would like some other people's insight. Thank you. Quote Link to post Share on other sites
nerdperson777 Posted September 26, 2015 Share Posted September 26, 2015 Hi there! I would think that you experience sensual, and possibly romantic attraction. Sensual attraction has to do with the desire for physical touch. I think you could be asexual, or lithsexual, experiencing sexual attraction in theory but not wanting to pursue it. You could be panromantic, loving people regardless of their gender, or biromantic, two genders, usually male and female. Hopefully that helps! Quote Link to post Share on other sites
SkyWorld Posted September 26, 2015 Share Posted September 26, 2015 Also, some asexuals masturbate and some don't. It's fine if you do or don't, there's nothing wrong with either. Quote Link to post Share on other sites
avuhree Posted September 27, 2015 Author Share Posted September 27, 2015 Hi there! I would think that you experience sensual, and possibly romantic attraction. Sensual attraction has to do with the desire for physical touch. I think you could be asexual, or lithsexual, experiencing sexual attraction in theory but not wanting to pursue it. You could be panromantic, loving people regardless of their gender, or biromantic, two genders, usually male and female. Hopefully that helps! I honestly hate to be touched at all so sensual attraction isn't there. I am def panromantic for sure. Quote Link to post Share on other sites
nerdperson777 Posted September 27, 2015 Share Posted September 27, 2015 Panromantic, antisensual asexual? Maybe some emotional or aesthetic attraction? Even if someone hates to be touched, it doesn't make them asensual, like someone who hates sex isn't necessarily asexual. Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Amathy Posted September 27, 2015 Share Posted September 27, 2015 Sexual drive is completely seperate from any other identifiers. There is also a group of asexuals known as sex-repulsed. It is not uncommon. looking more into that community may help you better understand what you are going through. Everything you feel is completely valid. There is nothing wrong with you or with how you feel. Quote Link to post Share on other sites
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