Am I Asexual?

[HipHopHappyHat]

After about 2 years of believing I was Asexual I am having my doubts. I've had my doubts for a while now and I'm very confused about myself and if I am an Asexual.

I'd just like to explain that I have some kinks but have never masturbated to them, but I have thought about it and It seems like I would be okay with it.

I have had erections before to certain things that heterosexual men would, but I have never thought that I would enjoy sexual contact with anyone. I have thought about sex but have not enjoyed the thought, or rather, I have not reacted to it.

When I have tried to watch porn sometimes I get an erection but I feel very uncomfortable and wish to turn it off.

To put it simply (and weirdly) it feels like my penis wants to have sex, but the rest of my body doesn't.

Another thing I wish to point out is that I enjoy looking at normal things a heterosexual would, but again I have a horrible feeling making me want to stop looking at it. The feeling is of my entire body becoming warm, but mainly my face, like I am blushing, but It is quite uncomfortable and I want to splash my face in water for it to stop being so warm. It's almost as if two parts of my brain are fighting. One part sexual, another asexual.

Also, I enjoy certain people who tick some boxes for my kinky needs but I don't want to have sex with them. I feel a mix of aesthetic attraction and sensual attraction.

Imagine that you are looking at a Hot-dog. This hot-dog looks so tasty and nice anyone in their right mind would eat it straight away. You know this hot-dog is a great hot-dog. A fantastic hot-dog. If there was a prize for greatest looking Hot-dog, this would probably get 1st-3rd place. Just looking at it makes you feel really hungry, but you don't want to eat it. That's how it feels for me.

So.. I am Asexual?

[Star Bit]

Blushing and increased heart rate can be signs of romantic attraction.

Asexuals can masturbate and have kinks. There's a difference between masturbating to a person and masturbating to the things they're doing that cause arousal just for the pleasure. Sexual attraction is the impulse/urge/compulsion to have sex with a specific person; to do genital involving things to their body. In sexual people this desire is typically triggered by someone’s presence being sexually arousing.

[rtlloyd98]

I also don't know if I'm plausible for the asexual category. The main reason I don't like all things is because it's... ych! I wee, shit and eat with those! Futhermore, it has never come to mind because I'm completely fixed with either cricket or school, neither of which get distracted.