Marriage

[C-Lo]

Yesterday my older brother and his girlfriend got married.

But for some reason it is only today,

upon reflecting on how happy they are

and how last-minute

yet simple

and nice

and beautiful the ceremony was,

that I can't stop crying.

After leaving the County Recorder's chapel, and after eating lunch with each other

the two families,

we all said our goodbyes for the day.

And then he walked away with his wife, and his second family.

I just watched for some reason knowing that it was special.

But also kind of bittersweet.

It's that memory I keep thinking about.

I hope I can someday find someone like he has.

I think part of my crying may be a sadness as well

Because I fear that I won't.

But alas, I'm so happy for them.

And so proud of my brother.

Been through so much hell through his life and now seems genuinely happy and at peace.

[Ficulnean]

It's beautiful when people find in each other that which makes them happy. And, it's so heartbreaking to by necessity be excluded from that happiness which is increased by sharing until you can find somebody to share it with. But, imagine not the happiness you're missing out on but on the fact that you have the possibility of being the happiness you want to somebody else's fears.

[blue2 sky]

awwww bless you. I know this fear well. I think being happy in your own company then on practical level going out and meeting people.

Smiling.