Confused1991 Posted July 29, 2015 Share Posted July 29, 2015 My entire life I have never understood sexual attraction. I have liked and loved people as a friend and then have dated them because it feels like that's the next step. I don't have sexual urges but I participate in sex with my partners because I love them and I don't want them to feel rejected. I get nothing out of sex, even the physical act of a penis going into my vagina feels pointless. The only time I enjoy sex is when I have smoked pot first. Growing up I thought I just needed to find the right person and it would ignite. I always felt like a freak because I don't look at people and see them as sexual beings. Even if I love someone I don't feel attracted to their bodies or want to have sex with them. I do love the people I date but I feel so bad that I don't have the normal feelings. I feel like I'm hiding from them and lying because I pretend that I do and I tell them that I feel the sexual feelings but I don't. I have only very recently started looking into this because I was starting to feel really alone. I feel so much better reading that other people are in this situation. A lot less alone. Should I just accept this inside or do I have a duty to tell my partner. It's pretty serious, I love him and we live together but sexually I just feel like an awful liar. Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Archon Posted July 29, 2015 Share Posted July 29, 2015 You're definitely not alone. I'm sure a lot of people here can relate to your story. You should be honest to your partner. I know you love him but you have to take care of yourself too. And if he cares about you then he would want you to be honest about it, right? I wish you all the best whatever you decide to do. Welcome to AVEN! Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Star Bit Posted July 29, 2015 Share Posted July 29, 2015 Guilt can eat away at you and ruin a relationship. Being yourself should be what a relationship is about. Quote Link to post Share on other sites
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