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LostInSilentHill

Hello,

I am a 26 year old woman with mild aspergers.

I've recently given a lot of thought and I believe I am asexual but it's confusing. Here's what I mean:

I think genatalia is gross and I don't like to look at it but I do enjoy sexual pleasure.I like to read erotic fanfiction but I find a lot of it pretty gross and some of it arousing. I think I would like to have sex but when I really think about it it or try to picture it with someone I feel awkward and unconfortable.

I am super confused.

I have never been with anyone ever so I have no experience with another peroson, not even kissing. In my mind a relatioship sounds great as does the prospect of kissing and even sex but when it actually comes to that or thinking about it with a real person I get super unconfortable. It only seems okay in my imagination.

Women completly gross me out as does there bodies. Men are okay as long as I don't have to look at their privates or butt. I can't watch porn because I find it disgusting.

I have a non-sexual fetish.

Is this too much information? It any of it inapropriate? I don't have a clear idea of these things so please tell me if any of it is. Please excuse my spelling.

If anyone could give me an idea, that would be great.

Thank you.

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Maybe you're demi. I'm just throwing it out there because you said you like the idea of having a sexual relationship. The fact that you find people's genitalia in general to be off-putting or even disgusting strikes me as totally healthy and normal, honestly. I think many people feel that way about strangers' parts. But if you met someone you were genuinely interested in, maybe after knowing that person well enough, you would want to experience those intimacies. But also perhaps not--it's entirely possible that you'd enter into a relationship and find out that you still only want to have fantasies but not act them out.

Anyway, nothing at all TMI or inappropriate in anything you posted--this is the sort of thing we talk about here, so no worries. :)

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