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[Yeast]

I turned 58 a few months ago. I'm a male virgin. I don't tell many people this because I feel I would be wasting my time. They would simply think I was lying for some odd reason. Perhaps people will take me a bit more seriously here. I can't really say why I evolved the way I did but I am not ashamed about what I am. It seems in American society, virginity is something one throws away as soon as possible. I suppose I like to hold onto things. Perhaps I ought to feel ashamed but if anything I feel somehow special. I have more fingers than the times I have actually kissed a girl. I have no idea how to flirt and the last time I made a pass I really embarrassed myself. That must have been 20 years ago. 30? Perhaps one might call me autosexual. In fact I have a rather good sex drive for someone like myself. I have at least one good orgasm every morning and as I've gotten older it seems that although the intensity has decreased, the desire has increased. I consider myself to be thoroughly male. I don't find other men attractive but I notice that I now find teenaged boys sort of cute. Somehow I think this is simply part of being human and is repressed in my society. I don't think there's much of a chance of me having a homosexual encounter though. All my sex is pure fantasy augmented with whatever internet pornography I can collect. Because it is fantasy I have developed some rather extreme tastes which would probably offend people. I must say that examining the world as a whole, America seems rather sexually immature. Despite the sexual spectrum I encounter, I dislike seeing people actually hurt and as far as the animal kingdom is concerned, I prefer my own species, thank you. It is probably no surprise I am quite a loner. My parents adopted me when they were middle aged and by the time I was a young adult, they had both died. It is also no surprise that I am quite naive. People have really been cruel to me in the past but I remember something Kurt Vonnegut said. He said too many people are obsessed with original sin. Perhaps we should think about original grace. Some people remain kind and decent no matter how badly they've been treated. I would like to think I have natural grace. If anything has ever really hurt me it is the fact so many people can be willfully ignorant. I must have been 40 before I realized that. Before then I assumed that reason could change people's minds. How wrong I was. Sometimes I think I would make an excellent research specimen. Maybe the areas of my brain devoted to human attraction have been used for other purposes. It is like how blind people can see with their sense of touch. Maybe I use what I don't use as an annex to my memory. I do seem to have quite a good memory. Too good in fact. Sometimes I envy old people loosing their memory. I have many unpleasant ones I will hold onto for the rest of my life and they all seem to have happened just yesterday. Oh well, there one has me. Perhaps I can find some asexual friends to hang out with and not have to worry about having to either hide dark secrets or try and explain things.

It's good to be yeast.

[Lady Girl]

Hi and welcome to AVEN! I'm sure you will find others here who have some of the same feelings you do. I hope you enjoy reading around and joining in the conversations when you feel you have something to contribute. :)

[kelico]

Welcome to AVEN! Thank you for sharing about yourself! You'll find a lot of people here that can relate to you. Explore the site all you want! : ) I like what you said about natural/original grace. I really like it actually. So thanks for sharing that idea! I hope you enjoy being a member~

[Ficulnean]

Hey, welcome to AVEN. You're right--I at the least, believe you.

[yellow]

Welcome! Glad you've joined us🍰