As I lie here (Midnight thoughts)

[Steph Ace]

I lie here, on my living room couch, prepared to visit sandman for another night. I can't help thinking 'Where did my life get so RIGHT?'

Six months ago, I was an extremely overweight University Freshman with major depression and a small group of friends. My nights were horrible, filled with self-loathing and grim thoughts of what my future was going to be like. And then things began to change.

My first 'life changing' relationship was 'LittleMissParadox' here on AVEN. This was back in May, right when I joined AVEN. 'She' (quotes needed for now) was another Torontonian who I happened to randomly message one day. We held private message after private message. 'She' introducted me to Ace Toronto, the cities asexual group. We both agreed to attend one of Ace T.O's events to meet in person for the first time.

The Ace Toronto group can be seen as my second 'life changing' relationship(s). I attended the meeting in early June, and clicked with many Asexuals that were in attendance (I believe ~15 that day). Many of which have become good friends in the present day. Shockingly I was surprisingly ask to assume the Role as an panelist at World Pride. I was astounded! At the time I identified as Asexual for about 5 months but had been in LGBTAQ circles for a few years. I spoke on stage (for better or worse) and discovered a lost side of my personality. True confidence.

Immediatly after World Pride, I began to lose the weight (I have proof as my first goal post is in the off topic section for July 1st, 2014). Since committing myself to losing the weight, I'm down -30lbs (-40lbs from highest) and still decending! School has slowed the process down but thats to be expected.

Finally, to put the cherry on the top of the ace cake, I drew up the confidence to ask 'LittlePersonParadox' (now identifying as gender fluid) to be my partner. All those months ago, so much building and repairing of character achieved something in my life I didn't have before, purpose. I had dated, but not 'fallen' for anyone. Being Ace alot of people didn't fit with my idea of a partner so I kept moving on.

Did I mention why I'm falling asleep on the couch? Littlemissy (my nickname for them) has fallen asleep in my bed! We entered into a relationship two months ago!

To go full circle, I have three (two?) Asexual workshops at different Universities around Toronto next week for 'Asexual Awareness Week'. The relationship with that group has improved my ability to help achieve a goal. I wouldn't have considered raising awareness before June!

While getting them ready for bed, I decided to give Littlemissy a massage. They said 'What I did to deserve you, I would gladly do it again'. That comment, a single sentence meant the world to me! From the insecure, depressed 'big guy' to a person with such an amazing partner. Life is going amazingly and I can't help but write about the people who got me to today.

it feels good to write positive threads, and it's just as awesome to read others. My question for everyone; Who are people that have made a difference in your life? Cliche but its true!

[yellow]

I love your story! So uplifting... Thanks for posting it :) To answer your question, I've been fortunate to have some great family members, friends, coworkers, and teachers over the years who have made a mark on my life. I've been fortunate indeed!

[sighbeans]

I'm also from Toronto. How do you join Ace Toronto? :P

[littlepersonparadox]

Ace tronto starte out as a google group. You Can fint out more the e-mail is asexy.toronto@gmail.com

[Frigid Pink]

Great story- thanks for sharing it!

[PatheticGirl]

I loved your story and wish one day I'll also write something similar. Currently, if I think about life changing events, they are all negative. I wish to get one positive one... a dream hopefully will be fulfilled someday