Seeing genitalia as disgusting - related to gender identity issues?

[VictoriaRachel]

in my human sexuality last week, we watched a couple videos about female genitalia. there was a lot of vagina...and somehow this made me hate my body even more. i've had body image issues for a very long time, but now i'm wondering if any of those issues have anything to do with how i perceive my gender. during the early stages of puberty, i wanted bigger breasts. i think this might have been because i felt thicker without them (this makes sense in my head.) but i hate them. they look stupid and just make me look disgusting. and watching those videos also got me thinking about how i feel about...you know...the other female area... i hate it. i think it's ugly and disgusting. i think the human body is ugly. disgusting (i keep using that word, but i can't think of any others.) so does any of this have anything to do with my gender identity issues i've been thinking of lately? do thoughts like these mean i am neutrois and just don't want to have a gender? or does this have nothing to do with gender and it's just a new offshoot of my body image issues? i'm just so confused and this is all coming at a time when i've become even more depressed after being broken up with and it would be nice to just feel even the tiniest bit certain about anything at all.

i just need to shut up and stop complaining and stop thinking. it hasn't done me any good.

*human sexuality class*

[J Kapp]

in my human sexuality last week, we watched a couple videos about female genitalia. there was a lot of vagina...and somehow this made me hate my body even more. i've had body image issues for a very long time, but now i'm wondering if any of those issues have anything to do with how i perceive my gender. during the early stages of puberty, i wanted bigger breasts. i think this might have been because i felt thicker without them (this makes sense in my head.) but i hate them. they look stupid and just make me look disgusting. and watching those videos also got me thinking about how i feel about...you know...the other female area... i hate it. i think it's ugly and disgusting. i think the human body is ugly. disgusting (i keep using that word, but i can't think of any others.) so does any of this have anything to do with my gender identity issues i've been thinking of lately? do thoughts like these mean i am neutrois and just don't want to have a gender? or does this have nothing to do with gender and it's just a new offshoot of my body image issues? i'm just so confused and this is all coming at a time when i've become even more depressed after being broken up with and it would be nice to just feel even the tiniest bit certain about anything at all.

i just need to shut up and stop complaining and stop thinking. it hasn't done me any good.

*human sexuality class*

Hmmm...I sort of feel similar when I see images of female body parts. I'm male, and I don't happen to be gay, yet, in my first years of high school I tried to be like a normal guy and get into porn. I remember the first time i watched a video and my mouth was agape. I don't want to get too graphical, but I'm sort of 'turned off' by the vagina. If I see one, I actually would rather turn my head away than stare at it. It's really hard to explain what exactly goes through my head, but suffice to say I think maybe it's the same as you despite our gender differences. This makes me think (because I'm male, you female, yet similar views), it's not about gender identity but something completely different. I don't mind breasts, and I don't get a sense of dread or disgust when I see them in movies and what not. These days now, I can bare the sight of all the sexual parts, as I guess I just matured about it as I watched pron in an attempt to become sexual (this was before I had any notion of asexuality). Still, the foreboding is there. One of the worst things is imagining myself having sex. It's terrible and horrid to say the least :D. I would comment on the male aspects of the body, but I don't feel at liberty to put forth an opinion considering I'm heterosexual (according to others, it's common sense to be disgusted at the penis if you're straight *shrug*).

[daveb]

Oh, I don't think so. I'm not particularly interested in seeing anyone's genitals, male or female. Female breasts I like, but there it's just smooth skin and no bodily orifices or hair. Overall, though, I'd just as soon see people with some clothes on, even if it's as little and insusbstantial as some bikinis or lingerie, covering at least the genitals and nipples.

I don't see that as a gender issue or gender identity issue or a body image issue. I see it more as an aesthetics issue and a personal one at that. By which I mean that that's the way I see it, but individual results may vary, as they say.

[prettyeyes]

I think it could really go either way. There are a lot of sensible reasons to dislike genitals. I don't particularly dislike mine or other people's when viewed nonsexually. I think seeing artistic photos of nonaroused genitals kind of helped with that. I mean, when viewed in black and white and attached to a happy, average person they aren't any more gross than elbows (Which I do think are gross, actually...). But all messy and attached to someone trying to look sexy? Eeyew. And that goes for both penises (Penii? :lol: and vaginas.

[P is for...]

frankly, i don't think there's really any reason for anyone to have to look at genitalia in the first place, either their own or anyone else's. for pity's sake, don't people do things discreetly, in the dark anymore? i mean, if someone wants to look, by all means, that's their prerogative; but somehow the vast majority of humanity throughout the ages has managed to survive without ever being painfully and accutely aware of it all.

i'm not repulsed, exactly. just bewildered why anyone would think it necessary to have to look, that's all.

[Typical Power]

I prefer the german word "Hasslich" for describing something so ugly that disgusting isn't strong enough.

Genitalia look like parasites...

[ZombiesxArexLove]

i really think god had his eyes closed and was just not up to making the penis, because its just gross. no offense. the vagina i have no problem with its just there. but i don't have to see those so yay!! and i find the human body good in clothes. take off a shirt and im like you "sexy" just disappeared.

[Oka-sama]

I see genetalia as ugly too. I don't like seeing them. I don't really think it's related to gender, though, but hatred of your own body parts certainly might be.

(And just for the record, I wished for bigger breasts too--and got them! I hate them now and want to punch my fifth-grade self in the face.)

[Professor Godric]

It's a Your Mileage May Vary thing. Personally, I am terrified of vaginas, and dicks haunt my most revolting, terrifying nightmares. Other people love genitals. YMMV.

[Keilah]

Like some people here, I too can't stand the sight of genitalia - mine or anyone else's. Last year I went fishing with my dad, an uncle and a mutual friend of theirs in Canada. The cabin we were at is so far north, there is no running water, electricity or indoor plumbing, which means no showers. So, one must take a sauna to get clean. Unfortunately, this meant getting naked with my dad and uncle in the same small room. Put simply, that was the worst part of the trip, even the hummingbird sized mosquitoes were nothing compared to that. If I could get rid of my stuff, I probably would without much hesitation.

[Hiraeth]

I can't be certain - though my own intense hatred of genitalia was simultaneous with the hatred of the concept of biological gender. The two are, after all, interchangeable to some extent. But I think everything takes time - give yourself some time and see whether or not your perceptions change - if there's a lot going on right now, it's hard to say for sure what combination of factors could have caused it, right?

[saracore]

i don't like the shape of women's bodies in general, unless they're very thin and not typically "womanly" looking.

I feel absolutely like you, I've always liked skinny girl bodies with no curves (i.e. Keira Knightley)

I'm not disgusted by genitalia but I'm not attracted, they're like "ugly".