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so today im pretty depressed. im not suicidal, i dont want to die, i dont feel worthless. i just feel blah, all i want to do is lay in my bed in the dark, maybe cry, maybe not. i have a hard time crying. and maybe its because i just had a relative pass and the funeral and stuff is tomorrow, but im usually pretty good with funerals and try to be "the strong one" and maybe my subconcious is starting to act on me. also norma (my moms aunt that passed) pretty much died because she literally worried herself to death over her daughter that has a possibly abusive but def controlling husband that wont allow her contact with her family....
being once in a abusive/controlling relationship it just hits home, minus the fact that its a family member.
i have bi polar disorder and what nots, but it doesnt feel like my depression usually does it feels different, hollow, empty emotionless when i want to be emotional. its just weird, i just want to go home and go to sleep....
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depressed for no reason, or maybe a good reason im about to get "emo" here for a second...
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Posted 30 July 2010 - 04:43 PM
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Posted 30 July 2010 - 04:54 PM
I am sorry that you are deppressed, that really sucks!
I cannot make you feel better, I can only say I feel you.
I cannot make you feel better, I can only say I feel you.
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Posted 30 July 2010 - 06:26 PM
It doesn't sound like depression. It sounds like you are just in mourning. That's a natural process that everyone goes through after losing someone they care about. Take some time out.
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Posted 30 July 2010 - 06:56 PM
*huggles* it seems like you need it.
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Posted 30 July 2010 - 07:16 PM
Its ok to feel like that. reason or not. You can take a couple days and hide and sleep a little until you are ready to face life again. you'd hurt yourself more pushing too hard in my opinion. just don't let it take over your life.
and in the meantime always make me feel at least a little better. so for you.
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always make me feel at least a little better. so for you.
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Posted 30 July 2010 - 07:56 PM
thanks everyone it means a lot. i just dont know where to sort out my feelings since i wasnt that close to her i get the feeling of "then this shouldnt be THAT hard" then anxiety kicks in and then ugh. plus im nervous about the funeral because i hate open caskets and i know it will be because my family is all about that. anyways... thank you all very much 
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Posted 30 July 2010 - 09:56 PM
I'm often one of the strong ones at funerals too. Often I wont feel the loss of the person in generel, however at certain times, usually when nobody is around, I'll suddenly feel very down about it all. 
I've been accused of being emotionless or something similar so I don't really tell people around me about how I feel about it. It is not like I'm happy that the person has died, it is just that my heart doesn't really see it as 'dead' more like 'gone to another place' (and I'm not talking heaven and hell).
I've been accused of being emotionless or something similar so I don't really tell people around me about how I feel about it. It is not like I'm happy that the person has died, it is just that my heart doesn't really see it as 'dead' more like 'gone to another place' (and I'm not talking heaven and hell).
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You have to have sex that often to be in a marriage with sex? That is around once a month! I can understand if some sexuals can't take the pressure of being sexual.
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Posted 30 July 2010 - 10:52 PM
yakerdeets, on 30 July 2010 - 09:43 AM, said:
so today im pretty depressed. im not suicidal, i dont want to die, i dont feel worthless. i just feel blah, all i want to do is lay in my bed in the dark, maybe cry, maybe not. i have a hard time crying. and maybe its because i just had a relative pass and the funeral and stuff is tomorrow, but im usually pretty good with funerals and try to be "the strong one" and maybe my subconcious is starting to act on me. also norma (my moms aunt that passed) pretty much died because she literally worried herself to death over her daughter that has a possibly abusive but def controlling husband that wont allow her contact with her family....
being once in a abusive/controlling relationship it just hits home, minus the fact that its a family member.
i have bi polar disorder and what nots, but it doesnt feel like my depression usually does it feels different, hollow, empty emotionless when i want to be emotional. its just weird, i just want to go home and go to sleep....
being once in a abusive/controlling relationship it just hits home, minus the fact that its a family member.
i have bi polar disorder and what nots, but it doesnt feel like my depression usually does it feels different, hollow, empty emotionless when i want to be emotional. its just weird, i just want to go home and go to sleep....
I feel really down, too. I've been unemployed for over a year and it's just really getting to me. Makes me want to give up, but I won't.
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Posted 01 August 2010 - 06:52 PM
again thank you all.
the funeral was yesterday and i lost it and its ok to lose it and it felt good.
what made me lose it is the stories about her as a mother and grandmother and it reminded me of my grandmother (who is still alive) and i just realized how lucky i am to still have both my grandparents still alive and healthy.
i need to spend more time with them for sure while i still can, i used to when i was younger but i need to start again, especially now that i have free time on my hands for the moment.
however, i am still kinda blah and again i still dont know why, so maybe im still mourning, but im gonna give myself time like you guys suggested and see what happens. im also still seeing my therapist so that helps.
the funeral was yesterday and i lost it and its ok to lose it and it felt good.
what made me lose it is the stories about her as a mother and grandmother and it reminded me of my grandmother (who is still alive) and i just realized how lucky i am to still have both my grandparents still alive and healthy.
i need to spend more time with them for sure while i still can, i used to when i was younger but i need to start again, especially now that i have free time on my hands for the moment.
however, i am still kinda blah and again i still dont know why, so maybe im still mourning, but im gonna give myself time like you guys suggested and see what happens. im also still seeing my therapist so that helps.
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